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Love Yourself

Basically, it is my favourite song now, Love Yourself by Justin Bieber, along with Shut Up And Dance With Me and Geronimo but that is besides the point. Not many people share the same passion I do for the song because they deem that the lyrics is 'mean' and makes him seem like he's 'bitching about her' but I find it so truthful. The words seem so real to me because it is a phase people go through when they experience break up;

or maybe it's because the song reminds me of you and I'm a sucker for emotions when it comes to you. It seems that I just want to remember and feel the feelings I had when I was with you, whether it was loving you or getting over you. 

When I first heard the title of the song, I was under the impression that the song was about Justin learning to love himself, forgiving his own mistakes and trying to understand himself. However, I soon realised that I was very wrong when instead, he was telling the girl to love herself instead (and I'm pretty sure he means fuck you when he says that)

You think I'm crying

Oh my ohhh, well I ain't!

And I didn't wanna write a song

'Cause I didn't want anyone thinking I still care, I don't

But, you still hit my phone up

My mother thinks he sounds egoistic in this verse, that he is trying to rub it in her face but I recently went through this myself too and for most of the time, I was just trying to convince myself that I was strong and that I didn't need him. Hell, I was a crying mess and as many times as I tried to put down my pen and stop writing about him, I still did and I hated myself for it. Somehow, I ended up with six books of messily written poetry, convincing myself that I hated him. As much as I wanted to get away from him, he kept texting me. We would stop so often, for weeks, then he'd talk to me again. We'd stop for months, then he'd talk to me again. You still hit my phone up, every so often. I didn't know if it was because you still cared about me or you wanted to rub it in my face but it hurt talking to you. 

My mama don't like you and she like's everyone

I guess I always knew that you were wrong for me, my brother didn't get along with you and my friends knew that there was a problem before we even started dating. My father hated the way you cut your hair and my mother didn't say hi when she saw you. 

And I never like to admit that I was wrong

They say he sounds like an egoistic jerk but seriously, I wouldn't want to admit I was wrong because I fucking loved you and I don't want to sound so foolish for loving you when it was so obvious you were bad for me. 

You still talk to me now, about the most useless things but it still makes me smile and gosh I hate you,

go love yourself.