Sleeping With A Friend (Belldom)

Part: One

[Dom's POV]
I'm sat here, in this room. Watching the clock tick, time passing. It's been almost an hour since Matt has spoken, silence, nothing but complete utter silence. I wish I knew why, was it what I said? No, he said the same thing, that he 'loves me'. Well, I love him. Even if he thinks it's bull shit, I love him.
We've been friends for a long time, Matt, Chris and I get along well.
Love for Matt hasn't really worked for him, his divorce between Kate and him have been hard. But since then I've had a better chance. To have him. To myself.
But why me? Why do I have this feeling? This feeling of being with a man, who says he 'loves me' but admits to this, so sudden, he hasn't even shown me his love for me, he's been sheltering himself from me with this complete silence for an hour.
I was expecting the kind of movie-like embrace, the one where the man shows up at his loves door at three in the morning, just to confront her, for his love. And then have the women cry tears of joy and jump into the mans arms.
Though I wish that would happen.
He's ignoring me, I think, his behavior says otherwise. I wish he say something, one god damn word would help, I need something, I'm sitting here, kicking myself for this act, this act of me confessing, and to get turned down, why me?
"Say something, anything, just please, I'm begging you, we have to go on stage soon and to be ignored will bother me for the rest of the night"
Still, nothing.
But then, he spoke.
"Dom, you know I'm not gay"
"But you said you love me? Do you even mean it?"
He wouldn't look me in the eye.
"I take back what I said, maybe I do love you, I need to think."
Think
I hate that word, that word reminds me of wasting time, you can't sit around thinking for the rest of your life, think if you love someone.
"Love at first sight" I replied. "You're my love at first sight"
I need to shut up, but in telling him how I feel, I'm tired of hiding, I want to be more than friends. So what if he's not gay, I want him, I love him.
Even if that means I can't fuck him senseless, I just want love.
"I have to get ready"
He got up, walking towards the door.
Leaving me alone.
Maybe this is bull shit.
But I want Matt Bellamy for my own...
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[Matt's POV]
Silence
I hate silence
Especially if I'm shutting out my best friend.
Now, listen, this sounds like crap but I do love him.
It's just, I haven't come out yet, and don't plan anytime soon.
I have the fear of being judged, to be who I am.
I'm seen as the guy who has it all.
I don't want my life to go to shit just cause I chose to be who I am.
So I had to turn him down.
"You know I'm not gay, right?"
I said with a strict tone.
He looked defeated.
I sighed.
"I love you too, I just have to think"
Oh shit.
He hates that term.
The only thing that can beat him down more at a time like this.
"I take that back"
I replied, anxiously.
"I need to be ready to speak out my decision"
He was playing with a piece of loose thread on his outfit.
"What are you afraid of exactly."
Dom spoke, he sounded concerned, yet eager.
"What do you mean?"
I replied hesitantly.
"I can see it in your eyes, fear"
Without a word I stood up.
"I don't want to answer that"
I was tense.
"I have to get ready for our show tonight"
I said, proceeding to leave the room.
He followed after me.
"Matt please tell me."
"The fear of the media ruining my career because I love someone. My friend, I can't."
Everything grew silent.
I felt this pain in my chest start to spread.
I wanted to kiss the poor man.
I regret what I said, but it was too late.
He just stood there. Staring at me.
"I'm sorry, I snapped"
He said nothing.
Just looked me in the eyes, and got closer and closer until our lips touched.
He was kissing me.
I could feel his heart, beating faster, and faster every minute.
I kissed back.
This feeling.
I love this feeling.
He pushed me against the wall, without breaking the kiss. I wrapped my hands around his neck. His were around my waist.
Suddenly, there was a knock at the door.
We broke the kiss and I opened the door.
It was Chris.
"Hey, uum, we have to go on stage soon, I think you two should get ready."
I fixed my hair and excused myself and went to my dressing room to get ready.
"What happened in here?"
Chris asked, looking at Dom.
"I'll tell you later"
Dom said with a smirk on his face.
And closed the door...