Your Lips, are my Addiction (Boyxboy)

Ugh, School. Ugh, Life.

°TRIGGER WARNING!!° Don't want anyone to harm themselves...! Love y'all!❤

Nash's POV
I felt really guilty.
I lied to Cam.
I just couldn't give up my blade.
Not now.
Not yet.
Maybe not ever.
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*Next Day*
Cameron left to school. I told him I wasn't feeling well. Half truthful. I felt really depressed. But I could still go to school.... But, he just dropped me off at my house.

When I got home, no one was there. Not Hayes, Sky, My mom, Will, or My dad. Not surprising though. It is Monday. I went to my room and took my clothes out of my over night bag, and took a shower.

I couldn't help but, feel disgusting with myself. I look in the mirror and all I see is a fat, pale, scarred, boy. A boy, who looks over exhausted. A boy who looks done. I am done. With everyone and everything.... Except maybe Cam.❤✊

In the shower, I did all the normal shower stuff. Washed my hair and body, etc. Then I saw my best friend. My sharp, shiny best friend. I picked him up. I dragged my finger across the edge, with hot water pounding my back. I sat down in the tub, with the shower still going. I took my best friend and introduced him to my thighs. I've never cut here before.

I moved back and forth. 7 new horizontal cuts. Moved up and down. 9 new vertical cuts. I moved diagonally starting from the top of my original, horizontal cuts. 4 new cuts that way. I moved diagonally starting from the bottom on the opposite end of my original horizontal cuts. 5 new cuts that way. 25 new cuts total. Each one overlapping the other.

I stood up, and rinsed off the blood from my leg. I got out of the shower and dried off. I put sweats and a T-shirt on. I grabbed my best friend and shoved him in my dresser drawer. It's already 9:45. Time flies when I cut. I decided to go downstairs. I turned the TV on and watched Keeping up With the Kardashians. I love that show. I texted my mom telling her I was at home, she said it was fine. I decided to message Cam too.

Text convo⬇⬇
Nash: Hey Cammy. Wyd?
Cameron: Hey Nashy. And I'm in English. Sadly.
Nash: Haha loooosseerrr. I know how much you hate English.
Cameron: Yea you do. It'd be way better if you were here.❤
Nash: Would it now?
Cameron: Yes Nash. It would. Imy bb
Nash: I miss you too❤
Cameron: I miss you the mostest. No arguing. You will get no where.❤✊
Nash: Mostest isn't a word,  but fine. How's Catthew?
Cameron: This morning they were all lovey and kissy. Ewe.✌
Nash: Awwwe, they are to cute. like goals.
Cameron: Oh shush. We already do stuff like that.
Nash: True. Well I'm gonna go eat. Ily Cam.
Cameron: Ok. I love you too Nashy.
*End of Convo*
After Cam and I's conversation, I got up and made a bagel. Just a plain bagel with regular cream cheese. (Do y'all put your bagels in the toaster? I do.✊)((same.)) I also had a Starbucks iced coffee that was in my fridge. I brought my food, and coffee to the couch and continued my KUWTK marathon.

Cameron's POV
I'm at school. Ewe. I hate people. (Same.) I mean, I don't hate people, but I don't like them either. Nash just texted me a few minutes ago, I talked to him for a bit. I miss my baby.
He said he wasn't feeling well this morning, so I took him home. I'm really proud of him though. For throwing his blade. That must have been hard. Really hard. I want to surprise Nash today. So after school I am going over to his house. No warning. I'm just showing up.
I also need to talk to him. About coming out, to my parents.... I want him to be there with me for the moment.