I can't live like this

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Tara's POV
I open my eyes and look around no one was in the room I look down to my stomach and notice I'm not pregnant any more I say to myself I press the assistance button repeatedly until a nurse fly's in "my baby where is he ?" I ask impatiently "he's being fed I can take you to him " she says "yes how long have I been out ?" I ask while getting up "couple hours " she says I look down to see that I'm wearing a hospital gown and black socks I put my hair up in a sloppy bun we get in the elevator and get to the floor I see Gemma at the elevator doors "I was just coming to check on you " she says I hug her "I love you Gem thank you " I say "I love you to now let's go see your son "she says "what you thinking of naming him ?" She asks "well I've heard Jax talk about his brother and his father his face lights up I was thinking naming him Thomas, Thomas John Teller if that's okay " I say her eyes tear up " its perfect " she's says we finally reach the room I see Jax with Thomas in his arms he looks at me and smiles "I'll give you guys a minute " Gemma says and walks out I sit down and Jax hands me him I smile at the sight of my son beautiful and happy "I'm sorry I wasn't there " Jax says I smile at Thomas " yeah me too " I say Gemma walks in along with all the guys they all take there time to hold their new prince " I can't believe you made that " Donna says "yeah me neither" I say to her "did it hurt ?" She asks "like hell " I say and start laughing she laughs along after everyone leaves Jax ,Thomas and I head to my room Thomas was already sleeping Jax laid in the bed with me I spent the whole night resisting the urge to lay on his chest the next morning I was being released with Thomas Jesus Tara you can't live like this take your son and take a break from this I said to myself "Aunt Carol I decided to take your offer if its still stands " I say "oh sweetie of course it does I can go pick you up now if you'd like I can make it by 12:30 am if I go now " she says "no its OK I still need to talk to his father about it " I say "talk to me about what ? " Jax says " I'll talk to you later aunt Carolyn tell the boys hi for me " I say and hung up " I'm going to my aunts " I say "for how long ?" He asks "two three weeks tops " I say "why ?" He asks "I need a break from all this and my family would also like to meet him " I say as zip up my hoodie "wait your taking Thomas ?" He says "well yeah he's my son " I respond "our son !" He says in an angry tone "oh I didn't know you cared ! " I respond and Thomas starts crying I pick him a soothe him " your not going anywhere " he says I scoff "1.) Yes I am 2.) You don't tell me where I can and can't go " I respond as I rub Thomas's back "your not going to take him from me " he responds in an angry tone "I'm not leaving forever and I can take m- our son anywhere I want " I say coldly and put him in his car seat "don't worry my dads coming to pick me up " I say and walk out the door " Tara I'm not gonna let you take him from me " Jax's says "listen prince I'm not taking him anywhere but to see his other family we'll be back " I say and walk away leaving him dumbfounded .
Later that night
"I hate that you had him so young but he's beautiful you did good baby " my dad says "thank you daddy um I'm going with aunt Carolyn she's on her way " I say he smiles "that's great how did the biker take it ?" He says "his name is Jax and he's upset that's why I'm leaving at the dead of night cause he probably wouldn't let me leave if he saw " I say we both hear a knock "speaking of the devil " I say and open the door "oh my Tara you look so beautiful " Carol says "thank you " I respond "where is the little guy ? " she asks "sleeping in his bassinet" I respond she walks over to him and gasps "he's so beautiful " she says and holds him to her chest after she holds him for awhile we were on the road I called Gemma at first she was upset but she said things with the Mayans were getting kinda rough so it was a good idea Jax kept calling but I never picked up I was so upset he missed his sons birth tried to tell me what I can and cant do with Thomas like meeting his family Jax would have his whole life with Thomas but was to selfish to let him see his other family .

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