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Chapter 4

Shattered

I was stun by his word.

"B-babe w-what's wrong?" Natatakot ako sa mga mata niya.

"Akala ko ba Claire wala na?! Fuck! You were doin something behind my back?! Worse you were doing 'it' with another fuckin guy?! Tang ina Claire!" Nagulat ako sa sigaw niya. I never saw him this furious before.

"W-wait? What? Ken I don't know wh-" hindi ko natapos ang nasabi ko nang sinuntok niya yung gait nila. Nagulat ako sa Ginawa niya, nakita ko rin na medyo nayupi yung gate nila.

"You don't know?! Tangina! Pumunta si Kyle dito saying that my girlfriend is the most delicious girl he ever tasted! Tangna nung una hindi ako naniniwala! As i was gonna punch his fucking face he hand me his phone with a picture of you! Ikaw nakakandong sa kanya! Tangina halos wala ka nang saplot dun Claire!"

Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya. What ef is he talking about?!

"Watch your mouth Ken! I don't know what you're talking about! Kyle? Last time I saw him was year ago! I don't have any communication with him! And for your information wala pang nakakagalawa sakin! For all the people Ken ikaw dapat ang nakakalam niyan!"

Hindi ko na mapigilan ang hindi mapasigaw. Nahuhusgahan nako dito. Ang masakit siya pa ang humuhusga sakin!

"Really? really Claire? wala pa? haha eh, ano to? " sabay pakita niya sakin ng isang cellphone na may picture. Halata na kung sino ang lalaking nakaupo na may kandong pero nagulat ako sa babae na nakatalikod na nakapapatong kay Kyle. They were kissing and hugging each other.

Oh may god! That's not me! Oo mag kahawig ang katawan namin and the hair? Iba lang yung kulay dahil pula yung nasa picture!

"Gosh Ken that's not me! Tignan mo yang litratong yan! Halatang hatalatang hindi ako yan! What the hell is happening to you?!"

Im getting pissed. Dapat alam niyang hindi ako yun Sa tagal naming nagsama dapat siya na yung nakakakilala sakin!

"Don't make me laugh Claire! I know it's you! Look at the dress she's warring! It's the same dress I bought you! Ayan na eto na yung picture! Hawak ko na bat hindi ka pa umamin!" Naitapon niya yung cellphone pagtapos niyang sabihin yun. I can see the anger in his eyes.

"Bakit ako aamin kung wala naman akong aaminin! Ken I'm telling the truth that.is.not.me it just happen that we have the same dress!" I shout it out loud. Naiiyak na ako. I can see in his eyes that his still not convince na ako yung nasa picture and it hurts so much.

"I think we should.." Umiwas siya ng tingin bago tinapos ang sasabihin niya na sana hindi ko na narinig.

"Break up"

***

I woke up and I can feel heavily in my eyes. I broke down last night after I remember the scenes that made me so broken.

Tumayo na ako at pumunta sa banyo. Pagtapos kong maligo bumaba nako I can see tita sitting on her favorite chair.

"Good morning hija" I greet her back.

"I made waffles wanna eat?" Tumango ako at sumunod sa kanya sa kitchen. I sat on one of the stool and she gave me plate with two waffles on it. Tita's waffles are the best. Hindi ko alam kung anong nilalagay niya dito. She loves experimenting things at maganda naman ang kinalalabasan nito.She hand me the chocolate syrup.

" So.. I heard na pinag patuloy mo na ang naudlot na pagiging Photographer mo?" tanong ni tita sakin

Bata pa lang ako mahilig na akong kumuha ng litrato hanggang sa naging pangarap ko na siya. When I was in 7th grade I start joining clubs and get a chance to be the school photographer every time na may event na mangyayari.

"Opo tita, gusto ko siyang ipagtuloy, sayang rin kase"

"Go! Ipagpatuloy mo! I love your shots dati ko pa sinabi sayo yun sayo pero sabi mo at titigil ka na" yeah naisipan kong itigil ang pag pho-photography ko dahil sa kanya.

" Well I change my mind, hindi ko pala tagala kaya bitawan ang mga bagay na nakahiligan kong nang gawin" I smile to her. For me double meaning yung sinabi ko, mahirap talaga siyang bitawan lalo na kapag sobra mo siyang mo siyang minahal.

As I finish eating nag paalam na ako kay tita at umakyat na sa taas.

Aalis muna ako ngayon, I want to explore the place that will help me to regain back myself again.

Wala si tita nung bumaba ako kaya hindi na ako nakapag paalam. Sasakay na sana ako ng mag ring phone ko. Tinignan ko kung sino. Unknown number.

Nag aalangan pa akong sagutin dahil bihira lang may tumawag sakin na wala sa contacts ko.

Took me seconds to answer. Nang sagutin ko nag sisise agad ako.

"Claire baby please talk to me.. I want to see you please.."

Agad kong binaba yung tawag. Pinakiramdaman ko yung tibok ng ouso ko at sobrang lakas nito.