Beyond Doubt. (#Wattys2016)

Chapter 20. Beyond Doubt.

I came back home. I didn't have to take Jay-Jay home cause, Shawn was supposed to take him to his place. I sat on my sofa and thought. 

Thought about what was so wrong about me. I was still confused why Shawn was mad at me and was trying to keep distance from me. I didn't do anything bad as far as I know.


Aria called me about a thousand times to check on me if I was alive or dead. She swore that she is going to kill Shawn. She attempted so many ways to make me laugh. So, I just fake laughed for her to be satisfied and leave me alone, but whom was I kidding, she knew I wasn't really laughing. As soon as I hung up, it was followed by a text.

I will see you after school. I am not asking. :*
-Aria the Great.

She is such a pain in the ass. She would do anything to make me forget the conversation I had with Shawn. But the fact was, I remembered every word he said. Every pause he took. As if I memorized the whole conversation we had.


The feeling was kind of like a heart break even though you weren't committed to the guy. It felt miserable, but you couldn't help it.
I flicked through the gallery and kept watching those multi-shots of me and Shawn.


Why couldn't life be easy and we got whatever we wanted and whenever we wanted? But, that wouldn't be great so, hard way is to make us realize how badly we want something and how much we can fight for it. But I already gave up.


The doorbell rang and I opened it to find Aria standing there.


"Hey, you alright?" she enquired.
"Never been better," I said, sarcastically. Obviously.


She just rolled her eyes and sat on the sofa with a thud.
I sighed.


"Why are you acting like a pregnant woman?" she asked me.
"Do you even realize that I am sad, and I don't want to talk? Even if you are here, can't you be quiet and say nothing at all," I said annoyed.
"I am sorry okay? I will make that nut head understand what he did and what he lost, alright?" she said, determination in her voice.
"No, you aren't," I opposed.
"What?" she yelled, "I am going to crack open his head," she finished.
"NO," I said, almost yelled.
"I am."
"No."
"Yes."
"No."
"Totally."
"I am not having this conversation anymore," I gave up, "you have to promise me right now, you are not going to talk to Shawn about me, at all," I finished.
"Okay," she sighed.
"You swear," I asked.
"I swear," she said.
"Fine," I sighed, "now you may leave me all by myself," I finished.
"Sure, see you at school tomorrow," she said.

I stayed quiet.

"Don't even plan on skipping," she threatened.
"Okay fine. Now go," I said.
"Love you," she said and hugged me.


I hugged her back and she went out the door, after giving me a smile.


- - - - - - -

Three days in school after the conversation I had with Shawn was pretty much the same. It would just be me not trying to get on his way. Every day, we would just smile at each other if we accidentally caught each others' gaze. I would sit miles away from him on the same classes and during lunch, we didn't sit together, because he magically vanished somewhere, each day.


I even made up my mind to follow him during lunch to see where he goes, but then I changed my mind. 

Four Days Later. . .

Ting Tong....

I rang the house bell of the Collins and waited. It was Sunday and I feared that Shawn will open the door and I would faint instantly.
I was here on their door, to take back Jay-Jay because mom and dad would be returning today so, they asked to bring him home.