Im Not Ok (Phanfic)

Chapter 1: The Flight

Hi. Ive been thinking of writing a fanfic for a while... Ill try to update regularly but my parents don't know that i even watch youtube sooo.... Its kinda hard to hide. I hope you guys like it. Thanks for reading! Bye!

Dan's POV

Im on the plane to New York. I don't want to go. I cant leave. Im leaving behind everything I have ever known.

"dan..... Dan..... DAN...." My mum yelled to me "You were not responding to anything, I was worried!"

I guess i fell asleep. I wonder if she even noticed that im not ok, she probably didn't, she never does. "We are now landing in New York, have a nice day" Right as that is said everyone jumps out of their seats and pushes their way through. Theres no point in me trying, i'll just stay here for a bit. The people finally cleared and I got my bags. When i was heading off the plane I noticed that there was a boy with brown, curly hair, sitting by himself. Maybe he's waiting for someone. My mum said in an exited tone "Dan, honey me and your dad are going to get some food and use the bathroom. Do you want anything?"

"No, im fine. Er, can i get some soda?"

"Fine. Your not getting too much. I dont want you to be too hyped up when we get to the house."

They left.
I sigh to myself "finally"

I turned around to look at that black haired boy and he was gone. I wonder where he went. When I go to turn back around I feel something next to me. It was that brown haired boy. I jumped out of my seat yelling "My god you scared the shit out of me!"

"Sorry! I didn't mean to. I-I just thought you were lonely and would like to talk. I-Is that ok-k?" He said in an extremely nervous way

I zone out, dazing into his bright green eyes. They are gorgeous.

"Is it ok?" He asked again

I was snapped out of my little trance and quickly nodded and said "yeah, that would be great. By the way, what's your name? Mine's Dan."

"Hi. Im PJ. I see your wearing a muse tee shirt, they are a good band.

PJ probably said that a little too loudly because people were starting to stare.

"Whoops sorry, I got a little excited" PJ said with a slight giggle

"Well hi PJ! Nice to meet you. Ive noticed that you have an accent, and i was wondering if your new here too." I say hesitantly

"No. I moved here 6 years ago. But I did live in the UK until then. Im guessing by your accent and how fast you picked it up your from the UK too?" He says with a confused face

"Yeah. Im just getting here now. Do you like it here, like are there nice people---" I say before being cut off

"DAN I WAS LOOKING ALL OVER FOR YOU. YOU DID NOT ANSWER YOUR PHONE. LETS GO WERE GOING HOME!" My mum said in an angry tone

"Bye PJ. I hope to see you soon!" I say quickly so he can hear me

Im mad at my mum. PJ was really nice and I might never get to see him again.
My mum looks over annoyed and says "Dan come on. Stop acting so miserable. You dont have a reason to be sad. Just be happy. Ok? I know you have depression but that was last year. This is a new year. A new life for you. And your on medication for it. You are fine!"

I am anything but fine. She knows about my problems. But she chooses to ignore them thinking im this perfect son she always wanted. Well reality check, nobody perfect. Well I mean PJ's eyes are like eye goals so I guess thats an exception.

What am I thinking?! Im not gay. My mum said that she hates gays. I came out to her as asexual and she pushed me off saying thats not a real thing. It hurt so badly, but thats in the past.
The car pulled up into the driveway of my new house. Its big, and has a nice yard, but something just does not seem right. My mum said shes inviting the neighbors over for dinner so I have to dress nicely. I wonder who is in the neighborhood. I hope they will like me.

"DAN" my mum screams throughout the house

"Yes?" I say wondering what it is this time

"The neighbors will be over in 15 minutes. Start to freshen up. And don't wear that muse shirt. Wear that nice button up you have. There is a girl next door that is single and shes your age. You should look nice to make an impression!" My mum says. She obviously does not even know me

"Fine! And mum why! I told you not to embarrass me." I say angrily

I get into the bathroom and notice that my bags are unpacked. Well thats weird. I pull out my favorite button up shirt and put on black skinny jeans. I plug in the straightener and start on my hair.
After about 20 minutes of prepping up I'm ready for tonight, I hope. Some people have already come but its all younger kids so far, I'm not too interested in interacting with them so I walk past.

"Dan you look great! Meet the new neighbors. This is Ms and Mr Ligouri. They are our next door neighbors. Their son will be coming soon. He's a freshman just like you!" My mum says trying to make me happy

"Mum. Whats a freshman?" I ask

"Oh its year 8. Yeah they call it weird things here." She says laughing

Right as im about to walk up the stairs someone knocks at the door. I went to get it and its PJ!

"PJ?! You live here?! COOL!" I say excitingly

"Yeah. Turns out im your neighbor! Hey.... U-um do you maybe kinda want to sleep over at my house? I want to get to know you better." PJ says nervously

"YEAH. I would love to. Mum! After dinner can I sleep over at PJ's! Please." I say hoping she will allow me

"Sure! As long as its ok with Ms Ligouri." She says calmly

"YES!" Both me and PJ scream