relationships

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let me introduce to you my boyfriend, oh sehun.

he was one of the popular guys back during my high school days and ever since he helped me with my homework once, i began to have a crush on him. but i never knew that he liked me secretly too, until he confessed to me one day while we were strolling around in the school garden.

today was our 3rd anniversary. the night before, sehun had already texted me and told me that he wanted to bring me to the restaurant that we frequented. of course, i was very excited to meet him since i was busy with work recently and did not have the privilege of time to go out. the thing is, it had been so long since our last date that i literally forgot how to dress properly. yeah, it had been that long. but i had no one to turn to for advice, since my girl friends were all busy with their own stuff and i couldn't bare to disturb them. with no other choice left, i decided to call seungyoon.

"annyeong? seungyoon-ah?" i asked nervously, afraid of what he will think of me asking for girl advice.

"yep, it's me. it's great that i can still hear your voice on a day off work hahaha. but anyway, why did you call me?"

"oh... um... that..."

"it's okay, you can just tell me. we're siblings, remember?"

those words warmed up my heart. to think that i had someone to rely on and ask for advice even when all of my other friends were busy was true happiness to me.

"i know it's weird for me to be asking you this... i'm having a date with my boyfriend today and he's bringing me to a restaurant... but..."

"but?"

"i... i am not really sure what to wear because it's been a very, very long time since we last went out... so i just wanted to ask... any suggestions?"

"so that is what you were going to ask. hahaha you're really cute you know, nam chaewon?"

i blushed at his words. i have to say, it's the first time — okay not really, if you consider the times when i was still a baby, but, you get what i mean — in my life that i heard someone telling me that i was cute.

"i'm going to give you advice as a guy. since you said you're going to a restaurant... anyway, what kind of restaurant are you going to? you have to dress according to the atmosphere there, anyway."

"well... it's not those kind of extremely posh or high class restaurants... it's just one of those whereby they serve western cuisine and the price range is quite affordable. oh, and students frequent that place too, since i also went there a few times with my boyfriend when we were in high school."

"hmm.. then do you have those kind one piece sleeveless dresses with a different colour from waist down? it will be great if you can pair that with a rider jacket. suits the restaurant, and of course, your looks too."

"i see... thanks for your advice! it's great to have you around."

i dressed accordingly to the advice that seungyoon gave and set off to meet sehun.

- seungyoon's pov -

after ending the call, i plopped onto my bed and stared at the ceiling for a while. for some reason, my heart felt empty (a/n: hint hint, winner's song 😉). i was happy to give my advice to chaewon, but at the same time, i felt a bit... sad? it's like i felt a bit dejected by the fact that she had only treated me as a brother all along. i really don't know how to describe this feeling. wait a minute... this feeling... do i actually like her? i picked up my phone once again and this time, i called namjoon.

"namjoon-ah? i have something to ask you."

"yeah?"

"since you have a little sister, i want to ask you this. when she has a boyfriend, do you ever feel sad or feel like you want to protect her even more? something like that?"

"hmm... not really. i actually feel happy for her since she has another guy for her to rely on. i won't feel sad, i just remind her to be careful with who she's meeting and give her advice on guys from time to time."

"ah... i see..."

"but why are you asking anyway? don't tell me... you have someone that you like?"

"well, i'm not quite sure if i like her... that's why i called to ask you."

"oh... hahaha, good luck with her. bye!"

no... this can't be... do i really...? after listening to namjoon's words, i felt even more confused. all along, i had only thought of chaewon as my little sister. but ever since we began to see each other more and more whether it was outside or during work at the cafe, i realised that my heart thumped every time our paths crossed, especially when our eyes met. i really just don't know what my true feelings are anymore...

i decided to go out for a walk to shake this confusing relationship matter off from my mind for a while. once i stepped out of my house, i began to wonder around the neighbourhood aimlessly. i couldn't consider what i was feeling right now as a heartbreak because i wasn't even sure if i really liked chaewon. seeing couples everywhere on the streets being lovey-dovey made me feel even more despaired. as i turned a corner, i arrived at a crossroad. opposite the direction i was facing was a restaurant filled with many people. as i waited for the traffic light to turn green, i observed the people inside. just then, i spotted chaewon at a window seat. the person opposite her was a guy, so i guessed that was her boyfriend. she was all smiles and seemed very happy as she gobbled down her food while chatting with her boyfriend. the same feeling i felt when i ended my call with chaewon hit me again. but this time, it was even stronger. then, i was 100% convinced. i knew that i liked chaewon. not just as a little sister, but as a woman.

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woohoo for another update hahaha.
i became an army not long ago so i couldn't help but use namjoon's name here hehehe.
enjoy reading!