relationships

아홉

as the warm morning sun shone on me, i finally woke up from my deep slumber. remembering that i had something important to do today, i immediately got up and picked up my phone.

"oh sehun, we need to talk." i said as soon as the line got through.

"what's wrong, baby?"

"stop calling me that. it's disgusting."

"why? did something happen?"

"you'll know. let's meet at our usual cafe later."

"okay then."

deep inside, i knew that i was a bit too harsh on him. but it was unavoidable. with every passing day, i felt that our relationship was falling apart more and more. and ever since that incident happened, i knew that i had reached my limit. i had to do something to end all this and stop hurting myself further.

when i arrived at the cafe, sehun was already seated at our usual corner seat, wearing his favourite black leather jacket and matching v neck shirt. i walked over and sat opposite of him.

"oh, you're here. want any drinks?"

"i'm fine."

"why did you call me out anyway?"

"i'll just cut to the chase. why did you fight with seungyoon that day?"

"i didn't— wait, you mean kang seungyoon, that dude?"

"yeah."

"well, for no reason i guess. he didn't do anything wrong."

i was even more confused at his words as i continued to ask, "then why?"

"because of you, chaewon. you think i don't know? recently you've been becoming so close with that seungyoon guy ever since he joined the cafe you're working at."

"sehun, that's just because—"

"because he's a newbie? stop trying to give those kind of excuses. you really think i'm blind? i saw everything that happened between the both of you."

"and what do you mean?"

"when you two went out on a mini date, he cared for you a lot. when you were sick, he visited you at your place and even kissed—"

before sehun could even finish his words, i sent a slap across his face. people were staring at us, of course, but i didn't really care. i was really angry at him.

"you stalked me?"

"if you think of it that way, then yes. i was just concerned about you."

"concerned? do you not know how to respect other's privacy?"

"and you? are you any better? do you realise that being so close with kang seungyoon is clearly a mistake because you already have a boyfriend?"

sehun's words made me see everything clearly all of a sudden. i realised that although it was his fault for fighting seungyoon for no clear reason, i was the one who made many mistakes first. instances of me and seungyoon's skinships and times when we were so close to one another came flooding inside my mind...