relationships

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those eyes and that smile... i'm pretty sure i've seen him before somewhere...

i decided to just shrug it off, thinking that i had been under too much stress from the break up with sehun and began hallucinating. i was about to go and make myself some lunch when my phone suddenly began ringing. i checked who the caller was... and it was seungyoon. i hesitated for a few moments whether or not to pick up the call. in the end, i decided not to. i was unable to face him. i declined the call but a few seconds later, he called again. sighing at his persistence, i finally picked up the call.

"chaewon-ah? why didn't you pick up the call the first time i called you?"

"oh... um... i... i was just busy."

"ah, i see."

"why did you call me though?"

"um... well... i just felt like it's been some time since i last saw you... and i was kind of worried about you because you didn't turn up at work for the past few days..."

"oh."

"do you want to meet up for lunch? i know this restaurant that serves really good and authentic italian food."

"oh... umm... sure."

i randomly picked out a white sweater and maroon skater skirt from my wardrobe. sighing, i stepped out of my house. it was my first time meeting seungyoon ever since my break up with sehun and i had to embrace myself.

as i opened the door, soft jazz music began playing. the atmosphere was calm and soothing, with the furniture being mostly made of ebony wood. i looked around to see if seungyoon was already here. i spotted him seating in a corner and waving his hand towards me. i nodded my head, acknowledging his presence and began walking towards him.

"you look great today, as usual." seungyoon complimented.

"thanks."

not long after, the waitress came to take our order.

"what do you want to eat? i heard that their lasagna is good."

"hmm... i'll just get an alfredo pasta."

"okay then. and i'll get a signature lasagna and also buffalo wings, please. that's all." seungyoon said as he handed the waitress the menus.

minutes later, the waitress came again with our orders.

i curled my fingers into a fist and rested my head against it, twirling my pasta constantly with my fork instead of eating. although a part of me liked seungyoon too, i just couldn't forget about sehun that easily.

seungyoon must have noticed me being so down as he questioned, "are you feeling okay? you kept on looking so out of it ever since you sat down. is there anything wrong?"

"huh? oh... nothing. i... i guess i'm just a bit tired, that's all."

"well then, the food is surely going to give you more energy!"

pabo-yah, why do you believe my words so easily? can't you see through my feelings?

over the meal, seungyoon kept on trying to talk to me and i only nodded or shook my head with occasional replies that were short. even though i didn't blame him, but after all, he is a factor in my break up with sehun. i just couldn't bring myself to face him the same way as before.

after we finished, we proceeded to the counter to pay for the meal.

"and that would be a total of $52.70." the lady behind the cash register announced.

seungyoon took out his wallet from his back pocket (a/n: don't guys look extremely cool when they do this?? omfg) as though he was about to pay. i stopped his hand from taking out his credit card. i wanted to pay for the meal as i didn't want to owe him anything anymore.

"i'll pay." i insisted.

"it's okay. guys should always pay, right?" seungyoon smiled.

i sighed and shook my head as i attempted to snatch over his wallet. however, he immediately retracted his hand and placed it above his head. due to our height difference, no matter how hard i tried, i could never get his wallet.

"if you can get it then you can pay." seungyoon challenged playfully.

i ignored his words and continued to jump to retrieve his wallet in order to prevent him from playing. soon, i forgot about all my stress and was having fun like a little child, jumping around while seungyoon dodged. people were staring at us but we didn't care. while he let his guard down, i tiptoed and pushed the wallet off his head, causing it to drop on the floor. i looked down at the now open wallet, which revealed a picture of s young little boy wearing a long yellow sleeved shirt with denim overalls placed inside a transparent compartment.

"is this... you?" i asked as i picked up the wallet carefully.

"yeah. cute right?" seungyoon joked.

i wish i could laugh, but i couldn't. the boy in the picture, or rather the young seungyoon, looked too much like the one in the photo i spotted in my memory box back at home. they had a 99.99% resemblance. i was shocked that seungyoon was him. the guy that i had lost contact with and always wanted to meet once again... was right in front of me? i remained silent and seungyoon took it that i gave up on paying so he proceeded. we parted always outside the restaurant and went home.

days later, it was a saturday. seungyoon had asked me out to a flower park for a walk. i agreed easily since i was a flower lover. we met at the entrance and began our stroll, stopping once every few minutes to take in the breathtaking view of the gorgeous flowers and of course, for photos. however, even as we walked, i couldn't keep my mind off the matter. seungyoon... he is really him...

time passed by quickly and unknowingly, the sun began to set and lights lit up everywhere in the park, creating a different atmosphere from day time. we stopped in front of a garden of white tulips for a while and i stared at them for some time.

"chaewon-ah..." seungyoon began.

"hmm?"

"i mustered up a lot of courage to say this to you in person, but... i realised that i have been carrying a torch for you for some time now. ever since we met, i fell in love with you. i know that i shouldn't be doing this since you have a boyfriend already... but could you, at least give me a chance to care for you?"

"i... i... i would like to... but it's impossible, seungyoon."

"but why? i don't expect an immediate reply or action... i just need a chance, that's all."

"seungyoon, you don't understand. we're siblings."

"but chaewon, that was just a silly thing i came up with back then since i wanted to look after you like an older brother would do and—"

"no, seungyoon. we are real siblings."

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ohohoho let's be honest, no one expected this right? ;-)))
now you'll have to wait in anxiety for my next chapter which wouldn't come very soon
/cackles as i watch everyone in confusion/
till then~