Lost (Harry Styles Fanfiction)

Chapter 7 (Don't Let Me Go)

After hearing what Harry said I realized that he couldn't save me from everything. There were going to be times that I had to do it myself. That's when I tried to snap out of my thoughts, the thoughts that were killing me not only emotionally but physically too. I was once again able to move, and I felt like myself again. I did it, I saved myself and I was proud. Even though it took me to almost die to know that I could keep myself safe now. Did I really need Harry anymore? All these thought pondered in my mind, I had to stop or I was going to get lost in them again.

"Katie, your okay. Thank God!" he whispered

I just looked at him, I didn't feel like speaking so I didn't. All I did was stare, even though it was kind of rude to just stare at him after all this but I couldn't find words.

"Lets just get you home before anything else happens" he says, taking my hand and walking me back to his car.

I have been through so much lately, my parents had just died, I almost died about 5 times and all my memories of my brother and his death were coming back to me. I didn't need this, Harry was suppose to help me, keep me safe but all he has done is bring me pain. I need to let him go, I know I can now provide and protect myself so I can leave. I need to do this for me, no matter how much I feel for him I need to feel for myself too. I just don't exactly know how to tell him that I don't need him anymore. I thought about it the whole car ride back to my house. I could just avoid him, and just let him go but that would be hard and cruel. I could just be honest with him, but would that be harsh too?

"Katie we are here" he says

I jumped, he scared me. I guess I was sleeping while thinking about what to say.

"Umm, Harry? I need you to come in, we need to talk"

Did I really just say that? I had no clue what I was going to talk to him about, not yet. Well, maybe I would have a little time to think about it. He nods and turns his car off, and gets out of the car. By then I was already unlocking my front door. I hadn't been back here in a while, this is where all the memories are of the people I love and the people I lost. I had nobody, only Maddie and I don't know what I would do if I lost her too. I walk through the memory holder called my home, I see pictures everywhere. The one that stuck out to me was all of us, My Mom, Dad, Brother and Me. A tear slid down my cheek and I felt a warm hand on my shoulder. I lightly pushed it off walking into the kitchen still wondering what I should tell him without hurting him.

"Katie? You ok?" harry whispers

"No, I was never ok. Harry.. I can't do this anymore." I began to speak

"You need to go, and stay away from me. All you have done is brought me pain, and now I know I can keep myself safe. I don't need you anymore, I want you to stay but you cant. I care about you but I also care about myself and there for I need to let you go, to stop me from feeling lost."

I saw his head face the floor in shock and pain. That was really the only way I could tell him, I spoke the truth; I was honest. I knew it hurt him and it hurt me too, but I had to because I had to keep me and others around me safe from Harry and Derek. He lifted his head back up and looked me in the eyes. I felt hurt, it was like I could feel his pain; it was like he could make me feel what he was feeling. That's exactly what he was doing, putting me under a trance to feel what he feels. My heart began to beat harder and faster. Suddenly I jerked my head and looked away, I couldn't let him do this to me. I walked towards the door and opened it.

"You should probably go now, I said what I needed to say" I coldly said making it seem like I didn't care, but I did care. I just couldn't let him know that.

"Fine, but I just want you to remember everything I did for you, and never let that go. Hold onto that forever" he began to choke, it was like he was about to cry but he held it back.

I just looked away, emotionless trying not to let him see me hurt.

"I will" I whispered as he walked out the door. He made his way to his car. Once he got in, he just sat there looking up at me. I closed and locked the door, I walked over to the window and he was gone. Just like that, I threw him out of my life. I decided to take a cold shower to get my mind off things.

Harry's POV~

As I was driving back to my place her face was stuck in my mind. She was all I could think about. How did I let my guard down again, every time I begin to feel again I just get hurt. I can't do this anymore, I need a change. I need to do something to get my mind off of her, a girl that doesn't even care about me. I understand she doesn't need me anymore but it hurts. More then I ever imagined, there is only one way out and it's to feel nothing. I began to feel hungry just thinking about the stress, so I decided to go out for a late night snack. As I was driving a saw a young lady walking by herself, I decided to stop and guide her towards my car. She was about 22, young and probably had no common sense because if she did she would have never gotten in a car with a total stranger.

"Thank You Sir, how can I repay you?" she asks sweetly

I could smell her blood, I could hear her heartbeat and it intrigued me. That's when I leaned in and bit her. She began to scream but it lowered down as I sucked harder and stronger. She began to get weak, her heartbeat slowing down until it finally stopped. She was dead. When I knew she was dead I felt horrible, what did I just do. I started up my car and raced home, her blood still on my mouth. I ran up the stairs holding her in my arms, I began to panic. I walk in to see my brother laying on the couch, he sat up to the sound of me walking in.

"Well Hello Br-" he cut himself off.

"What the hell did you do?" he yelled

"I killed her, it felt good but afterwards I felt guilt."

"Harry? This isn't you, this is the old you; what happened?"

"Don't act like you care, you never cared about me. You just wanted me to be your blood sucking buddy."

"See that's where your wrong, I do care about you. Your probably the only person I care about."

"She left, she doesn't need me anymore. She told me to leave"

"So you turned your emotions off? Your better then that!" he yelled

"I tried, and im going to keep trying to keep them off because I don't want to feel because every time I do, I get hurt!"

I didn't realize it but I had dropped the girl, her lifeless body lying on the floor.

"What do I do now? I can't just leave her and what do I do about Katie, I think I love her!"

"I will take care of it, you need some rest. Go to sleep we will continue this tomorrow"

~End of Harry's POV~

Ok, so I put a lot of thought into this chapter. I wasn't sure what I was going to write so I kind of had to think a lot, and I really hope you guys like it. I'm stating to get writers block, so it might start to get boring but I promise it will get better. Oh, and thanks for 300+ reads!! <33 :="">

Follow my Instagram: @katie_kraska

Follow my Twitter: @1Dner4life

Follow my tumblr: niggafaded

Follow my Vine: Katie Kraska