Lost (Harry Styles Fanfiction)

Chapter 20 (Its Over)

Wow, it's been a while since the last update. I'm really sorry, and I'm sorry that some of you feel confused with this story and its storyline but I had a different vision for this and it kinda made a wrong turn but I am trying to fix it. So, here is a new chapter. Enjoy(:

I broke from the kiss as a felt a tear slide down Harrys cheek and I glanced into his eyes.

"Why are you crying?" I asked softly wiping the tears from his face

He sad nothing, instead just shaking his head looking down.

"What is it?" I asked raising my voice a bit getting frustrated

"This is hard, I know I said all those things and I mean them but I'm.." He paused and put his head in his hand and began to talk again. All I heard was muffled noises coming from his mouth. I removed his hands from his face.

"Talk, Please." I looked him in the eyes

"I'm- I'm not good for you and you know that. I can't keep doing this to you, not anymore. Your life was so much better without me in it." He said breaking and taking a breathe

"Harry-"

"No, I'm not done" He cut me of while coming to a stand in front of me pacing in the room.

"You know this is never going to work, never. We can try and say all we want that it will but we know damn well it wont. Your too good for me, I'm an bad vampire and I can't be trusted. It's not fair to you to have to deal with this. Not anymore." He stopped pacing, not making eye contact with me.

I sat there appaused by his speech and I tried to utter words but they wouldn't release. Maybe he's right, but I didn't want to believe he was because I am no better then him. I love him and he knows that.

"Harry listen to me..your all I have ever wanted. Your the good and the bad that I need in my life. My life wasn't perfect before you came along, and it was far from perfect ever. You have made my life a living hell, yes but that will never change how I feel about you in general." I said not stuttering a word being sincere.

"Its not that. You don't get it. The reason for everything that has happened in your life was because of me being...me. I knew your parents were dead before you because I was involved and if I would have never been interested in you they would still be alive and you would still be happy. You can say all you want that I am all you ever wanted but it's not true. Deep down you will realize one day that you're done and you want someone who is worth your time and it isn't me." He spat back not a break between a word at all, like a speech.

I began to cry knowing that's his weakness but he didn't seem to break. I know we can get through this, we have been through much worse and we have always stuck by each other. It's not really over is it?

"I love you, I do. With all my heart and because of that I have to let you go and live your life." He bent down in front of me grabbing my hands.

"You deserve to be happy, you will find someone worthy of you and it will change your life for the better. They won't put you through the ups and downs. They will except you for you; a vampire and to prove to you, I will find the cure and you can be human again; I promise. You don't know how hard this is for me but I have to, for you. I can't be selfish anymore, not with you." He moved my hands to his lips giving them a soft kiss. He stood up gently kissing my forehead not saying another word he left.

I began to cry quietly so no one would hear. All his words piled up in my mind confusing me. I didn't want him to go, but something in me was relieved but it wasn't a good feeling. Seeing him walk out killed me inside but I couldn't utter the words to tell him to come back and it hurt me more than ever.