Lost (Harry Styles Fanfiction)

Chapter 19 (Christmas Lights)

It's been almost 2 weeks now, and I haven't heard from Harry or seen him at all. It's almost Christmas and I am alone, accept for Derek of course. He isn't much of company though, he doesn't do the whole Christmas thing. I would have never thought a year ago I would be spending Christmas alone the following year. This is one of my weaker points that I just want to give up, on everything even trying to find Harry. I miss my parents, my brother, even Maddie; she hasn't called me back since I called her which the conversation didn't even last five minutes. I just wish this whole year would have turned out differently, not saying I don't regret meeting Harry but I have my doubts. It seems like these days, the cold miserable days I have without him makes me more depressed. He was the only one keeping me up, and now that he isn't here beside me telling me everything is fine, I have no hope at all. I am thrown out of my thoughts when there is a slight knock on the bedroom door.

"WHAT!?" I yell wiping a tear from my eye before standing to my feet, heading towards the door.

"Katie..open the door" I hear a whisper taint voice behind the door. It sounded a bit like hair which made my heart throb. I reach for the door and open it wide, to reveal Derek not Harry. My heart shatters at the sight of Derek instead of Harry, I don't know if my disappointment was noticeable.

"Someone is here to see, well speak to you.." he speaks after awkwardly staring at me for a moment.

Once again my heart flutters, because maybe I have a slight hope that it's Harry; than again what's the use of hoping when there is no use for it. It always gets crushed when ever It comes along. I slowly walk out of the doorway, past Derek. My tears begin to fall as the realization hits me that it isn't Harry, once again. The little bit of hope I had just vanished, and I just want to give up.

"Hello..Katie" she speaks. Her voice threatening yet enlightening. It was Emily. Why must she be here at a time like this, unless she can help me I don't want her here.

"What!?" I swallow looking up at her as I cry.

Her face actually looks filled with sympathy but her voice sounds otherwise.

"Don't cry, I wanted to speak with you about Harry..i may know where he is." she half smirks, and when I say half it's legit half and small.

"Really? How would you know?" My hope rises in desperation, I wipe my tears and step closer to her. I feel Derek's presence behind me, hearing his footsteps step aside me.

"Well..don't get too excited. He may or may not be at this place but we can try."

"WHERE!?" I spat getting impatient and irritated.

"There is this cabin he use to go to at his down moments, even when he was a kid. I only know this because I use to watch him when he was younger, like follow him. As you may already know, I am a very old vampire. Anyway, there is a chance he could be there but not entirely sure because if his emotions are off than it may be an odd place to check." she says sounding so sure of herself.

"Well..lets go then" Derek says insisting before I can. I send Derek a small smile and he gives me a nod of assurance. Maybe there will be a Christmas miracle after all. It doesn't really feel like Christmas time without Harry here, though I have never spent Christmas with him I wanted this one to be special since it would be our first.

Harry's Pov-

The days grew longer, the night began getting harder for me to sleep without her near me, without me seeing her smile but I still haven't admit that I am in love with her yet; not to Ella anyway. If I don't soon she may kill me, but if I do than I will go through some ridiculous shit and when it comes down to it, Katie may not love me anymore and could be banging someone else. Thinking about that makes me angry, even furious. It pisses me off that I let myself get this far, it urks me knowing that I hurt her.