I was at Harry's house after a big fight with my boyfriend, Jay. He got angry at me because I spend to much time with the boys and with school and stuff. I got angry at him because he claimed me to much. The fight heated and at the end.. he hit me. I never told the boys that he had hit me. I never even told them that Jay and I got into a fight. It's just going to make them worry. Well the boys and me know everything about eachother, they think. I never told them my past. I never wanted to. In the beginning they would ask for it but after a while they realised that I wouldn't talk about it. So they stopped asking.
As I said I was at Harry's house. The boys and me were playing; Truth or Dare. It was really fun until I got a text. It was Jay. Jay: (y/n) Where are you honney? Me: I'm with some friends, why? what do you need? Jay: I'm so sorry. I need you. Come home please? Me: Okay fine, I'll come home. We need to talk. Jay: Okayy I'll see you later!! :) Me: Yeahh bye.
''Guys I gotta go.'' I said. ''Why? It's so fun!!'' Niall shouted. ''Sorry guys but Jay needs me.'' Harry's face got dark. ''I'll come tommorow, I promise! bye!!'' I yelled as I walked to the door. I heard some bye and see you later babe when I closed the door. I got in my car and drove home.
I opened the door to the apartment I shared with Jay. He stood up when I came in to the living room. He was in a whole different mood. ''Where the hell were you?!!'' He shouted. ''I was with friends I told you.'' ''Shut the hell up. You're cheating. With the boys, aren't you?!'' ''No, I'm not.'' I said calm. He came walking towards me. I got scared but didn't show anything. ''Oh you're not scared are you?'' He asked sweetly. ''No..'' I squeaked. Then he hit me, again. I felt my cheek tingle. I looked down at the floor. He said: ''(y/n) look at me.'' I looked at him because I knew he wasn't kidding. ''I'm going out with friends. If i find out you were at the boys or the boys were here then I will break your bones.'' ''Okay. I understand.''I said softly. Before he left he hit me hard in the stomach. I collapsed to the floor. He went out the door. I started to cry and then I walked to the bathroom.
My phone buzzed. It was Niall. Niall: (y/n) what did he want? xx. You were crying when you texted Niall: ohh it was nothing he wanted to talk xx. Niall: Ohh okay well are you coming tommorow? xx. Me: Yeahh I wanted to. Why? Something wrong? xx. Niall: No nothing's wrong. But only Harry will be there in the morning. The rest of the boys and me have to go to Simon first. xx. you: Alright, No big deal ;) See you tommorow xx. Niall: See you tommorow babe! xx.
You were thinking to yourself when you looked in the mirror. You lifted your shirt up when you saw a big bruise on your stomach. You touched it lightly and started to cry even more. You were addicted to cutting when you were a 14. This triggered it again. You started to look for a razor and found it. You looked at yourself and then at you arm, covered with scars. You were disgusted. You placed the razor on your arm and cut. It was really deep and there was a lot of blood. You heard the door slam and then a drunk voice yell : ''(Y/N) WHERE THE FOCKING HELL ARE YOU?.'' You jumped. Noo, you thougt. Noo Noo Noo, He can't know. You yelled back: ''I'M COMING.'' you washed your arm and went downstairs.
When you were downstairs Jay came up to you. You got scared, he was drunk. Whenever he was drunk he would do anything. He grabbed your arm roughly. ''Oww..'' You said softly. He pulled you closer and kissed you roughly. Then he grabbed your wrist and dragged you upstairs to the bedroom. That night, he did what you never expected. He raped you.
The next morning you woke up and got dressed. Jay already left. You got into your car and went to Harry's. You knocked on the door and Harry opened it. He smiled widely. You fake smiled and got in. Harry knew something was wrong so he asked about it. You said nothing was wrong. Harry pulled you in for a hug. You were in a lot of pain. Harry saw it and said: ''(y/n) You don't fool me, Tell me what the hell is wrong.'' ''Nothing is wrong Harry!'' You shouted. Then the rest of the boys came in.
''Let's play Truth or Dare!!'' Niall shouted. ''Yeahh let's do it!'' the rest of the boys said. So whe played Truth or Dare. It was Harry's turn. ''(Y/N) Truth or Dare.'' ''Truth'' ''Tell me and the boys what the hell is wrong with you.'' The boys looked at you when you suddenly jumped up, ran to the bathroom and locked it. ''(Y/N) open the door'' I heared Niall say. ''Please we can talk (y/n)'' I heared Zayn. ''NO GO AWAY.'' I shouted. I took the razor I had in my pocket and cut and cut and cut. Suddenly the door flew open. Zayn and Louis had kicked the door in. I heared a gasp and looked up. ''WHAT THE HELL (Y/N)!! They all shouted. I started crying even more than before. ''I.. I'm.. I'm so sorry..'' I said softly. Then it all went black.
I woke up in Niall's bed. He was sitting on the ground looking at me. I looked at him. He had red, puffy eyes. No, you thougt, he had been crying, for you. ''You're awake.'' Niall said. you nodded. ''Listen (y/n), I really want to talk to you about yesterday.'' He said. You sighed. ''Okay Niall, ask away..'' you said. ''Why were you cutting?'' ''I felt so bad, I was in pain. I am addicted to it. I'm so sorry.'' ''You were in.. pain? Addicted? What?.'' ''Jay hit me. All the time. He raped me Niall. I cut because of him.'' I said softly ''Why are you in a fucking relationship with him than?''He yelled. ''Because he will kill me if I would go away.'' I yelled back. ''(Y/N) We are here for you. Why didn't you tell us?'' he asked. ''I don't know. I didn't want to botter you..'' Niall pulled you in for a hug. For the first in a very long time, I felt safe.
Niall sighed. He pulled away and frowened. ''What Niall?'' I asked. ''I guess I have to tell you something.'' ''Okay.. tell me.'' You said preparing for the worst. ''I.. I.. I love you (y/n). I had to tell you sooner, than all of this wouldn't have happened. I have loved you from the first time I saw you. I want to be with you.'' I was shocked. ''I've ruined it, didn't I?'' He sighed. ''No. No, you didn't Niall. I love you to. I never thought you would love me.'' He came closer and kissed me.
We heard a cough. We looked at the door and saw the boys standing there. ''How long have you been standing there?'' You asked. ''Long enough to hear everything.'' Louis said. We had a grouphug.
Suddenly Niall yelled ''WAITTTTT!!!!!!!'' ''What Niall?'' Liam asked. ''(y/n) will you be my princess?'' Niall asked you. ''Ofcourse Niall!'' You said and kissed him softly. All the boys awwwwwwed and you had another grouphug.
You and Niall stayed together and you never heard from Jay again.
