Labour of Love

Amor is cruel

I stared at the doctor as I dazed off... The only thing I saw moving was his lips, it was as if he was speaking but no words came out his mouth. I looked over at Toni, who just laid there. As my tears started rolling down my face. I caressed her cheek, as the doctor placed his hand onto my shoulder.

"She's gonna be fine, she's really fighting, and holding on... She's our strongest patient yet." He smiled at me.

"Could you tell me more about her abortion?" I asked, sounding very unsure.

"Sure... As soon as mrs Braxton was dropped off here, we had gotten her scripts, from Atlanta, she had the abortion on December 16th 1990."

Just then I remembered. Toni had acted so weird that day, she had been tired the whole entire day, as I looked at her. I still couldn't figure out why... Why would she have an abortion. I wiped my tears, as I sat down next to her. "I'll give you some time with her." The doctor told me as he left out.

I pulled the chair in closer towards her bed as I sat down on it, taking her hand as I held tightly onto it. I bowed my head, as I decided it was time to pray...

"Give me strength Lord.
Lord, you are Holy above all others, and all of the strength that I need is in your hands. I am not asking, Lord, that you take this trial away. Instead, I simply ask that Your will be done in my life. Whatever that means, that is what I want. But I admit that it's hard, Lord. I feel like I can't go on. The pain and the fear are too much for me, and I know that I don't have strength on my own to get threw this. I know that I can come to you, Jesus, and that you will hear my prayer. I know that it is not your intent to bring me to this point just to leave me in the wilderness alone. If you could just give me the strength that I need today that is all I need. In Jesus' name. Amen!" I looked up at the door and saw ms Evelyn.

"That was beautiful son. You know our Jesus is great." She said hugging me.

I smiled at her. As I wiped my tears away. "It's okay to cry. I know the love you have for my daughter is more then infinity."

"I just, can't imagine my life without her by my side... Her positive spirit always made everyone happy." I sighed, as I got up. "I need some air." I told ms Evelyn as she nodded her head understanding. I walked out. I just needed sometime to breathe. And let everything I had just heard sink into me.

4 weeks later

I sat beside Toni threw everything. Nicole was gonna pay for all of this. I swear I wasn't gonna have any Mercy on her... I held Toni's hand as the nurse came in.  I stood up as she looked from her notepad to me. Tapping her pen against it.

She smiled. "Mr Edmonds, am afraid your wife hasn't shown any action of recovery. Her body just..."

I sat back down, in horror.

"If she doesn't show any sign of recovering in the next 15 hours, we're afraid that we are gonna have to shut off her machines-" I cut her off as I stood back up.

"No please... I would double the payment, but please, am sure, she'll wake up again..." I begged the nurse.

"Am afraid, that's just how it goes here." She apologized as she stepped out.

I looked at Toni as I started pacing the floor. "Toni..." I started. "You can't just give up on life so quickly, your only 28... I can't lose you. Not this time... Come on, keep fighting Aubrey needs a mother. She's on the verge of breaking down. Knowing her mommy isn't with her. Am missing my lover, best friend and soulmate... Toni my love... Please come back to me..." I sat down as I trailed off.

The machines started beeping. I looked over at them then at Toni. As the doctors and nurses came rushing into the room, telling me to leave.

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I had been seated in the waiting area for a while now. Until the doctor came this way, as he removed his cap. That's always a bad sign, the tears started immediately falling.

"Am afraid-"

"No!!" I sobbed as I broke down, falling onto the floor. Crying. Like a big baby...

"We're gonna have to switch her machines off... We're very sorry. We tried everything we could, well allow you to say bye to her before we finally make the the final changes."