False Crush

Chapter 2

He left the group chat,and I almost cried that day. It seemed like he didn't care about me getting mad. It was like there wasn't any friendship which I built for us. It was one of the worst moments in my life.

I thought we will never be friends again. But, that's just what I thought.

After a few days, my girl bestfriend, Emma, told me that Sam said sorry to her for me. She said that he couldn't say sorry to me. I admit, I felt something was cheesy and stuff, because why can't he say sorry to me? Does he have a crush on me or something?

Wait, what am I doing? Maybe because he's just shy, or maybe he's too guilty. I'n close-minded when it comes to stuff, because I don't want to assume and get hurt. I don't like getting hurt. I don't like crying for a boy . Anyways, he said sorry to me, after I said 'hi' to him on chat like nothing happened. I realized I was too harsh.

So he said sorry, and I finally forgave him. Everything was back to normal, but it wasn't as good as before. Our closeness level decreased from 99% to 75% real quick. Despite that, I have a close guy best friend in our group(The Filers) , and his name is Carl. He's a joker, a certified hugot king, he's a good advice giver, everything! He's the best, but let us not forget my girl best friends, too.

Carl always hangs out with us(girls) even though the boys stray away. One time, I made this mistake of saying that he's like a girl and all, and he said that he doesn't want to be close with us(girls) anymore. Of course, he was just joking. I laughed though, because of the expression on his face. He always makes me laugh.

I feel sad at times because he's always with the "Heartthrobs", a group the boys created. Whenever we(girls) are talking about private stuff, he goes to the Heartthrobs and stays there. Eventually, he's gonna like staying with them, and forget about us.

He doesn't literally forget us, but you know, the typical stuff that he still likes hanging out with boys, because the same gender and and such.

Carl knew about how I felt for Sam, because I told him everything and I trusted him with that. He said that Sam was really sorry for whatever he's done, and yeah, like I said, I forgive him already. Then he said one thing which broke my heart.

"Sam already has a crush, in another section,"

I persuaded him to tell me who it was, but he wouldn't budge. It felt like the world was falling down on me, because before we fought, he made me feel that he liked me. I guess I'm just assuming things, which can't even happen.

I know he'll never have a crush on me. It would be a miracle if he did. Compared to his crush, who might be beautiful, I'm nothing. I'm short, a nerd, a girl who has messy hair that is oilier than a large bucket of fries, shining braces on my big teeth(believe me, it's bigger than you think) and ugly.

I have no confidence in whatever I say, I'm boyish, I'm don't care about how I look, basically I don't care about anything... except him.