My Big Crazy World

"Why are you always happy?"

A few days back one of my friends asked me "why are you always happy?"  This question caught me of guard because truth is I am not. There is no way to be happy every minute of every day, You just can't.

but you can't say something like that so I said "I've wasted to much time with being down and one thing I learned from being down is that others will be like that as well. So I just speak what I think, be happy and make others laugh by being my weird but amazing self.  There are enough things to be happy about, so I just look beyond the imperfections"

So I just shrugged and said I have no idea. We talked about other things after that but I kept thinking about it, why Am I always the happy, crazy, laughing one... Maybe it is just a way to relive some stress, or... I don't know it's like I put on a mask from someone who doesn't care what others think, someone who is always happy and never down, it is me but just don't who I am when I am alone at home. I think this is how it feels to play a role all the time.

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~What do you think?

~ do you play a role when you are around other people?

~am I just some crazy bit- uhhh... Bicycle?

~am I just talking to myself? 'Probably' hey!

Anywho, this was my first rand of the book and I probably have no one who is interested in reading cra- (fudge-ing shoe it is really hard not to curse) stupid things. Thanks for reading not that anyone does but thanks to future readers and good morning/night, day? And hopefully see you soon

Goodbye pretty ones
With love,

N.V 💋