My Big Crazy World

About me

Hey pretty ones, I know I have made a couple of rants before but it's really important for you to know why I am who I am. it is long story but I will make it a little bit shorter, otherwise I would have a whole book to write ; )

Let's start at the beginning shall we?

I always was serious girl, I used to think about why am I on this world. I know it's a little too heavy for a four year old to think about don't you think? Like why am I breathing through my nose in staid of through my mought, (which was really awkward if I wanted to talk) but it is just a little thing you do when your four.

I grew older and I became a little social butterfly and a Tomboy (a still am) and unfortunately a little chubby.

When I was ten I got an arch enemy, (a was far to jong for one but who cares?) she was a little devil and she always wanted to take my friends away (her brother and mother weren't any better) and she did, she go to both my friends who I didn't really speak with so I didn't let it bother me, I still got all the boys by my side and almost all the girls liked me better then them.

Two whole years later there came a new girl and I became friends with her in an instant. But she got on the dark side (my arch enemy got her claws on her) and she just stopped speaking with me. That hurts, certainly if the schools bully is trying to get you down. After a couple of months I became quiet when I was with more than four people. The only thing I  did infront of more people (a whole school and it's parents) was singing, I adored singing from a Jong age and sang for the first time on stage when I was 11. Anywho, at the end musical I sang my solo which I begged for by my teacher and felt like I was the same girl as I used to be at 10. That feeling ended as soon as I saw my bully again (he locked me up in the showers) and as soon as I could I headed home.

(I know, I know. It doesn't look like it but I was bullied, he even tried to kill my bff when we were 13. He had/has? Anger issuses )

At 13/14 I went to high school and I had lost my chubby-ness but still didn't have the perfect figure but got social anxiety Issues (only for people my age, older and younger people went perfectly fine) so I now only talked one on one, and people found me weird for it and didn't talk to me other than ask why I was weird or bully me a little (again it took a lot not to cry) but I got through it.

Second school year I helped out a girl who was being bullied because I knew how it was, couple of months later she had her friends back and left me in the cold, but not after giving another blow (she started spreading rumors that it was all my fould what it was I still don't know and said that I followed her like s lost puppy bi- I don't need to finish this sentence. -I saved her from being bullied and took her under my already broken wing and that is how she thanked me?! that my pretty ones is how I got through my second year of high school.

Thirt year of high school I got a little over my anxiety and became more talkative and happy, I found 4 girls who : didn't talk much, got bullied in class or were just plane weird the fun loving way and befriend them. We became best of friends. I am always happy when I see the girls (but like I told you I still play an 'I'm super duper happy everyday acht' ) and we are now middle in the school year and I love it now. (I am training four times a day and kick boxs so that I stay in form. If you want to know)

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Wow! I didn't think it would be this long, sorry if it was boring but I needed to get that of my chest

You can always contact me if you want to talk. Or you have something you want me to talk about

Talk to you soon pretty ones
With love,

N.V 💋