The 'i still love you' letters

i need to listen to my heart not my head

After a little while i was forced to read it. i tried so much to just through it away in the trash can but my heart was telling me no. i took the envelope and opened it slightly. i was afraid i would get so caught up with his black mail all over again. suddenly i ripped the envelope open and unfolded the letter. i started to read the first few words with My name. my head telling me to through it away and forget about it all and just carry on with my new life. My heart telling me to find him and he's my soul mate. it was like a battle between me heart and head. BY every second my head began to win. i got confused and frustrated. 

Dear Jule my love,

I don't know why you won't listen to me. i do very much miss you

and love you to death! i would do ANYTHING for YOU!

I am not letting it end like this. I want to talk in person,

to make this right again. I'm not over you and i'm telling the truth.

Please Jule just give me- us, one more chance.

I still love you..

                                                         Harry xooxoxxxooxx

I quickly responded this time not even thinking what to write just writing what ever. i grabbed a piece of paper and a pencil. i started to write as i took a seat on the stool.

Harry,

i don't know why i am not listening to you too. i guess i'm just being stubborn.

But right now i'm very confused and hurt. I can't tell you how much

i want to be with you but i don't know if you will hurt be again like

 you already have. i personally think we should just forget  about each other.

i'm living a nice and happy life where i am right now. I have my dream home.

If you would like to talk in person i guess we could set up a time and place but i'm

staying in America and not taking a plain to anywhere too far away from where i am.

Love

                                                            Jule 

I looked around for an envelope lying around somewhere and found one in my desk. i folded the letter into the envelope and sealed it shut. i ran out to send it into the mail box. Hoping it would get to Harry as soon as possible. When i got inside i started to draw on a blank sheet of paper. i wanted to draw Peaches my cat. it started to look like a boy. I tried to make it look like Peaches but then when i started her fur it ended up as curls. It was starting to look like Harry. i was desperate for him. very much so. i wanted him to hug me and kiss me good night. But my stupid head is keeping me away from all this. My head is what got me here in the first place. i just want everything to go back to normal. Before Harry's big mistake. I wish Harry were here with me. i miss him so much.

I went into my bedroom and went on twitter. i got at least a hundred tweets asking what happened between me and harry. what i mostly replied is we just got in a big fight and i left. I said no more details about anything else. I hoped there was nothing going around with rumors or anything. I decided to check out my tumblr on my separate account saying i was an average teenage direction er. i logged in and saw everything normal just pics of the guys. then i saw a post saying rude things about me and how i was not even good enough to be with Harry and harry should stay with the bar chick. And that i was just a mistake and ugly. i started to believe this and i began to cry. i logged off and then went on my other tumblr account i got like 50 asks but i deleted them all. i made a post and told everyone that to please stop making me feel  bad and saying ugly and stuff. But of coarse i got asks telling me to shut up and stop whining.