Rules of Dating (Under Construction)

II. Crushed

Chapter Two: Crushed

                I knew I could’ve stayed home instead of going to school today. If I’ve known Allie had confess to Collin about her feelings toward him and that he felt the same way. I couldn’t keep acting like I was happy and glad that she found her mate when really inside me was mad at myself for being a coward and regretting the conversation I had with her.

                Maybe it wasn’t meant to be, I thought.

                Allie had brought this up at lunch and when she spilled the beans, I immediately lost my appetite. I didn’t feel like doing anything. It was like the end of the world for me. It was over for me. But I couldn’t tell her that I had feeling for Collin, not when she’s too hyped up for him. My life was crushed like when Evan had taken my first kissed when it was supposed to be for Collin. But I knew somewhere out there is a better guy other than Collin. And I also knew that after this, everything would be okay. Life would be okay. I would be okay.

                I was pointless to Allie, I was supposed to be cheering her and congratulating her when I’m here day dreaming about my crushed like life about me and Collin. So much for dreaming about our future kids. Like that will ever happen after this new information of what the students are talking about, the new cute couple.

                “Jamie?” Allie asked.

                “Huh?” I said waking up from my thoughts.

                “Daydreaming again?” she asked. “Did you hear anything I’ve been telling you for the past twenty minutes?”

                “Um, yeah. Something about Collin asking you out,” I said hoping my voice wouldn’t crack. Just saying that felt poison to me. I was hopelessly still and will be daydreaming about Collin even though he wasn’t even mine.

                She smiled brightly, “What should I wear? Oh my God I’m so happy; I’d never actually thought he’d feel the same way. Thank you Jamie for being there for me, I wouldn’t have done it without you.”

                I nodded giving her a fake smile, “no problem, anything for you.”

                All I wanted was to get out of here as she talks about Collin and her. Allie and I were friends, but not that close. I would have her back, but it doesn’t mean I would tell her all my secrets. The only person I would confess them so be Jace [which doesn’t also mean I’d tell him my feelings towards Collin.] and as if cue he suddenly came in the lunchroom with a girl eating his face.

                “Hey Allie, I got to go and uh….help Jace with his homework.”

                She frowned, “okay, I’ll talk to you later then.”

                “Sure,” I said knowing that it won’t happen again. I’m never logging into Facebook and give advices.

                “Jace,” I said walking towards him.

                He turned around from his toy, “yes your highness?”

                “Buy me ice cream,” I begged. “Please?”

                “Jamie, not now. I’m kind of in the middle of something here. You can ask me later,” he replied going back to sticking his tongue into that slut’s throat. I thought Alex and Brandon had a thing, but everyone doesn’t have a perfect relationship. Not even the two lovebirds, Romeo and Juliet.