"Mind Games.."

Chapter 6: "The Ledge.. The Edge.."

I got there, barely on time.. I didn't know if I should go towards him, or talk to him from a distance.. So I took quiet steps to him before speaking.. I just couldn't believe this was really happening.. So my memory is sort of hazey.. I can't remember everything, but I know that I could probably keep up..

My foot made a rustling sound on the ground,and I guess I startled him a bit.. And he turned around to see me...

"Keri.. Go away.. Please..? This is hard enough already.."

"Derek.. Don't do this.. Please..? Please.. You don't know what'll happen.. Please..?"

"Keri! I said go away! I don't want you seeing me..Like this.."

"Like what? Because I don't see anything bad.. Sure you made mistakes.. But I can help you.. C'mon Derek, we can fix this.."

"No, we CAN'T FIX THIS!! I'm sick, Keri! I-I can't live this way!! I don't think this can be fixed!"

"It can! I got fixed! You can be fixed, too! I can help you! Please Derek.. Let's go home.."

"Keri, I would love to do that.. but-"

"Why can't you then..?"

"B-because, it's, it's too late.."

I felt a tear instantly roll off my left cheek, and I uttered,

"W-what do you m-mean? D-Derek? P-ple-ease? W-what do you mean 't-too la-ate..?"

I saw him turn around, let a tear come out of his eye, and he said,

"Goodbye Keri.. I really, really love you.. I always will..And, I'm sorry, but I gotta do this.."

I reacted as quickly as I could! I stumbled to start running to him..

"Derek!! Please don't!! I LOVE YOU!!!"

...But I was too late.. I don't think he heard me.. I got to the ledge just as he jumped... I-I tried to grab him, but I wasn't fast enough.. So I just stood over the ledge and watched as the water slowly became still, still, stiller, and finally motionless.. Then my burning tears disrupted the water.. My eyes,I knew they were red, and full of a set of waters of their own..

Next thing I know, I'm shouting, screaming my lungs out, crying, shaking, and punching the chipped concrete 'til my knuckles bled a big puddle of red on the ground and stained my sleeves.. Not to mention my white pants..

Dammit, now I can't wear these anymore.. Too many memories now..

I felt i was the one to blame.. I felt I could've done more to prevent.. this! I could've reached him! But now, he took his own fuckin' life!! Why?! I loved him with everything I had!

So I just sat there, feeling useless, and tried drowning myself as well, except in my tears.. My stupid, dumb-ass tears!