Note to Keri, from Derek./04/29/2008.
No.. I'm not mad at YOU, but I don't wanna talk about it Keri.. I'll tell you soon..
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Linda hasn't helped much, with my problems, but I've learned something going to therapy: To NEVER let myself believe in reasons for death.. It's not fair, and it SHOULDN'T be!
~School..~
At Scolders, I decided to see the school's psychiatrist and ask him ofthe symptoms drugs may cause.. Maybe it'll bring me closer to how Derek was feeling.. Hopefully..
"Hi Mr.Gossling."
I guess I startled him a bit..
"Oh! Jesus-!"
I tried my hardest to keep in my laugh.. And he noticed. He was definitely embarrassed!
"Hi Keri.. Uhh- W-what do you need from me today?" He said, trying to catch his breath.
"Facts, Sir."
"Facts? What kind of facts?"
"Well, umm, on drugs, Sir.."
Mr.Gossling studied me carefully.
"Drugs? Why?"
"Well... It's come to my attention that many teens die of drug abuse, and leads them to suicide every year, Sir.."
"Mmm-hm, Tragic.. but is that the ONLY reason why you're here..?"
I had to lie..
"Yes Sir.. The only reason.."
He squinted his eyes at me, trying to figure me out, but I blocked his gaze by pulling up a stool by his desk, and sitting.
He sighs. "Okay Keri, what exactly do you wanna know? The feeling? The pressure? The pain? The Symptoms? The-"
"Yes!"
"The pain?"
"No, no, the symptoms."
"Okay well, it all depends on the drug.."
"Umm, I'm not looking for a specific type.. But, uh, what are some common symptoms?"
"Common symptoms include swelling, sweating, redness in eyes, dark circles and bags around the eyes, back pains, headaches, uhh.. Oh! Umm, lack of appetite, depression, mainly those things.."
"Oh, okay, thank you!"
"No problem, anytime."
As I was leaving, he called back to me.
"Uhh, Hey Keri?"
"Yeah, Sir.?"
"Can I ask you something?"
"It's a free country.."
"Umm, okay. Uhh, does our discussion have anything to do with Deek's suicide..?"
He knew.. He knew how I was hurting.. I really wanted to say yes, or nod my head, but I acted on instinct..
"No, Sir. Why?"
"Oh, I was just wondering.. Sorry for your loss, Keri.. He was a real good kid.."
"Yeah.. Thanks anyway Mr.Gossling.."
"Bye Keri. Anytime, okay?"
I smiled, and closed the door.
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*A/N, Sorry I haven't posted. Wi-Fi Got Cut off. But I'm back!*
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"Mind Games.."
Teen FictionAn Exhilarating Novel Of A Young Girl Named Keri Blitz, Is Trying To Find The Answer To Her Friend's Suicide... Or His Murder... She Runs Into Enemies, Lovers, Old Friends, And Blood-Curdling Scares. With Keri, Anything And Everything Is A Challenge...
