"Mind Games.."

Chapter 10: "Linda.."

Letter to Lewis Blitz from Keri Blitz,/12/13/2004.

"Hi Daddy! When are you coming home? Mommy says that you won't come for Christmas this year? Is that true? I hope it's not, because I got you a present! Where are you? Why aren't you home with us? OH YEAH! Daddy?! Can you tell Johnny that I got him a present too?! I think he's gonna like it a lot! Okay daddy, well I gotta go.. But I hope you come.. Please? Bye Daddy! I Love You!

Your Princess Forever,

~Keri.

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Okay, I began seeing a therapist ever since the whole "haunted phone call" thing happened.. I'm not sure whether it really happened or if I'm just going crazy.. I thought maybe a therapist can help me uncover what goes on in my mind.. I just hope Linda doesn't compare me to one of her psycho patients..

I've only seen her twice so far.. and we haven't yet gotten around the topic of The phone call yet, but I'm working on it.. We have met at the library for two Fridays now, and have only talked about how my father isn't with my mother and I, and how he took my brother Johnny with him.

Before our second meeting, I really didn't wanna go, but I pushed myself to. I basically told her about how in 3rd grade, I developed feelings for Derek, how in 5th grade he gave me a kiss on my cheek, how during the summer vacations,we'd spend almost the whole time together.. Then I told her that, now he's gone..

"He died?"

I couldn't look her in the eyes..

"Mmm-hmm.."

"May I ask why or how he died?"

"Suicide." The word put even more weight in my heart, weight that I can't quite carry..

"I'm so sorry Keri,"

There was a long silence in between us,and I could sense her awkwardness. Then she broke it off.

"What was his cause..?"

I hesitated.

"I promised not to tell.. You know, anyone.."

She began to bite her lip in tiny frustration while tapping her pencil on the desk.

"Let me remind you, everything you say to me is COMPLETELY confidential.."

"I know, it's just, I'd rather not tell.."

"Keri, we must base our relationship on a trusting bond.. Or else we'd be going nowhere.."

I'm not ready to tell, I think she should respect that.

"Yeah, well.. I still can't tell you.."

Now she's getting annoyed.

"That's why we build. Would you rather me tell you about MY friend?"

"Pshh! Go ahead! But you're wasting your time.."

"Then let me.."

She smiled at me, then gave the story of her friend's excuse for death..

"Keri, you're not the only one who has to go through this.."

"I know.. I just don't know what else to think.. I mean, how did you react when that all happened??"

"I acted somewhat similar to you, but you know what I did?"

She gave me time to answer, but I just stayed silent, knowing she'd say, something like 'I talked about it.'

"You know what I did, Keri..?"

I shook my head no.

"I let someone know how I was feeling.. didn't keep it all inside.."

I knew it.. Typical therapist crap..

"Keri, I know it's hard now, but everything will turn out for the better.. Just take it a day at a time, okay?"

I nodded to her, and the timer went off on her phone, announcing that our session was over.

'She doesn't know', I thought. 'She doesn't know that it'll all workout for the better..' I jammed my fists into my pocket as I walked home.. Thinking about Derek. "If it'll 'all work out for the better," I said to myself, mocking Linda's voice, "Then was Derek's death 'better' too?!"