Almost, being the key word

Ch.2

It's spirit week at school but i am in no cheerful mood. The week passes slowly, i go through the motions of school soccer dance and homework everyday. Pretending like there isnt a part on me inside dying.
Its Thursday. Homecoming is Saturday, im really looking forward to this. Even though i was supposed to go with logan.
Its the end of the day so i go to empty out my bag into my locker then go meet hailey before soccer practice starts. As im standing next to my locker my friend zach shows up. He is a really nice guy, i had a small crush on him last year before i went out with Luke.
"Hey can we talk?" He asks me.
Taken by surprise i say "umm yeah sure" and continue emptying my things into my locker.
"Well umm i really like you, and i have for a while now, so i was wondering if you might want to be my girlfriend" he asks.
Taken by surprise once again, i say without much though "yeah sure".
Saying this i didn't realize i was agreeing to being in a commited relationship.
"Cool, um do u want me to walk you to practice?" He asks
"Sure" i say.
Do i even like him? I think to myself.
"So do you like, like me back or anything?" He asks
Im not planning on lying. "Well... I had a crush on you for alittle bit last year" i tell him.
"Oh i liked you last year too" he tells me.
The only thing i can think about is logan. And all the ways that zach is not him. And how he is so different then him.
We make small talk untill we get to the locker room. He hugs me goodbye then leave.
Wtf have i done!
I hardly know him. How are you supposed to go from not really even talking to a person to dating them. Especially when you still like someone else.
While running laps I explain to hailey what happened.
"Why the fuck wpuld you start dating someone 2 days before homecoming?" She says
"Right im not sure what i was thinking! He isnt even going to homecoming!" I tell her.
"So what are you supposed to do just stand there and not dance withh anyone?"
" i dont know" is all i have time to tell her before practice starts.

After practice Annas mom gives me a ride home. Its 5:57. I dont have dance tonight because our teacher is out of town. So I decied to go for a run.
I lace up my sneakers and then go.
I run the route me and logan would sometimes go when we wanted to go for a longer run because this route is about 6 miles.
I see a text from zach on my phone screen but i dont feel like opening it. I would rather believe im single. Zach is a amazingly nice guy but im not used to nice guys. Or guys my age.
So i push the thought out of my head and run. I think about olivia, and how shes skinnier than i am. Im 5'2 and i way 120. Shes 5'4 so since shes taller she looks skinnyer when really i probably weigh less then she does.
These are the thoughts that keep me running. That force me to run the entire 6 miles.
About 10 minutes later a person jogs up next to me, id had my headphones in so i hadent heard them coming.
Its logan.
I pull a head phone out.
"Hey" he huffs in between breaths.
I don't respond.
"You were quite hard to catch up with you know." He says again.
"Look im sorry im dating olivia. You ended things with me, other wise i would still be with you." He tells me.
"I dont care" i tell him. Maybe its not true. But im trying not to care. I shouldnt care now since i have a boyfriend.
"Oh? Really." He says.
"Yep i have a boyfriend" i tell him.
"Since when" he asks
"Since when do you care?" I ask back.
"Never said i did care"
"No i guess not. Do you need something?" I ask him. Hoping he will leave me alone.
"Im going for a run, you just happened to be in my way." He says.
" well you didnt have to stop to talk to me"
"Well i didnt want to be rude"
We are practically almost yelling at this point, as close to yellin as you can come while running.
"Just leave me alone" i plead
"Leyna, i didnt want to hurt you That was never my intention." He tells me
"Its never any of your intentions to hurt me. But. It. Always. Happenes." I say and then turn around. Maybe i didnt run a whole 6 miles. But turning around now will get me a good 4. And then i can just skip dinner.