Things I Can't

Chapter 4

-Harry POV-

Shit. What did I just do? I wasn't thinking at all. Who knows what management's gonna say. All I know is that it's not gonna be good.

I stood there like an idiot facing the crowd. The music stopped and some people in the audience stared at me in shock while others laughed and played it off like it was just a normal lyric change, but they didn't seem too convinced.

"Um..how about we take a break?" the interviewer said.

I ran off the stage as Louis followed me.

"Harry, wait," he called. I just kept going towards the dressing room. I finally got inside, sat on the couch, and buried my face in my hands. I heard the door creek open slowly.

"Haz?" I heard Louis say. I looked up at him. He walked over to me. sat next to me. and put his arm around my shoulder.

"Hey, it's okay. People are just gonna think it was a little lyric change. It's really no big deal."

I sighed. "Okay. But I'm just scared of what management's gonna say. What if they force us to stay away from each other?" I asked. He looked at the floor. "I don't know. We're just gonna have to hope for the best, okay?" I smiled at him and kissed him. "Okay."

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-Louis POV-

Dan had called Harry and I to the recording studio so we could talk about Harry's little "performance" yesterday. We met up around 3:00. I've haven't seen Harry that nervous since our first concert.

When we sat down, Dan had this look in his eye as if he wanted to scream at us. Instead, he just gave us a lecture about why we need to stay a secret. It was pretty stupid if you ask me. His reason was because he didn't want the band to lose their "boyband" vibe by two members coming out. He also said that right now, being gay is "unacceptable". That really pissed me off. Why would it be unacceptable?

If two people love each other, then they should be allowed to show it, not hide it. So what if they're the same gender? Love is love. It makes the world go 'round. Being gay shouldn't be something to be ashamed of. It makes you different. And above all, we're all the same on the inside.

I really wanted to tell that to Dan, but that would've gotten us in more trouble. He punished Harry by forcing him to stay away from me for a week and wanted him to go on a "date" with a girl and start another rumor. Harry seemed a bit disturbed by the idea, but he learned to live with it.

The week I spent away from Harry was probably the longest week of my life. I stayed home for most of the week but was told to go out with Eleanor for a day. Other than that, I stayed home and did pretty much nothing all day. I thought about Harry a lot and how much I missed him. Little did I know that I would start having to feel that for a really, really long time.

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Ooh what's gonna happen? you'll have to find out soon c; but that's not gonna be for at least 10 more chapters or so lol. and sorry that this chapter was kinda short too. so uh yeah thanks for reading so far if you did :)

xx

Hannah