Don't Let Go

Memories

After arguing with my best friend dumiretso kami sa kanilang restaurant. Yeah, they own dozens. kaya naman I would never be bewildered kung bakit ang dami nyang boylet. The receptionist accompanied us to our sit, it's near the window at medyo malayo sa iba, para sa privacy. 

After ibigay nun waiter yung order namin, he hurriedly left. alam kasi nila na IF I'm with their boss hindi dapat sila nagtatagal sa tabi namin. I don't really have any idea kung bakit ako nagkaganun towards men, phobia na rin siguro.

Nag-angat ako ng tingin, only to see my friend gawking at me. damn, he's creepy.

"What?" I snap.

"Wala naman, it's just that may mga napansin lang ako." he siad, giving me a meaningful smile.

"And what in this unholy world did you notice?" I asked, irritated. Fuck! Alam na alam ko na kung saan 'to mapupunta.

"hahahahhahah! Sis, chill lang..... Ehh kasi naman, to see you eating like this... Well, acting like this is very foreign." Maarte nyang pahayag.

I glared at him. "Why, is there something wrong kung ano ako ngayon? Huh? For your information, this girl infront of you is the BEST version of Armaine Xylver Elise L'Amour."depensa ko.

He sighed, indicating that he's getting serious. Shit! ayoko pag ganito sya. "Really, Axel? This girl infront of me is the BEST version of you? nakita mo na ba ang sarili mo sa salamin, huh? kung hindi pa, try mo tumingin para malaman mo ang sinasabi ng lahat. Yes, you've beacame really sucessful on your carreer and you achieved this thing just in your own pero YOU CHANGED and it's NOT for the better Axel." Litanya nya.

And just like that, everything came back to me. Bumalik lahat ng mga alaala na pinipilit kong kalimutan. Mga alaala na paulit-ulit akong binibisita sa pagtulog ko. Yung katotohanan na iniwan nya ako para sa iba ay parang isang malaking sampal ng katotohanan na kahit kailan ay hinding-hindi ako magiging sapat para sakanya. The fact that, He will never love me more than a friend. At yun ang pinaka masakit, na kung hindi siguro nangyari yun ay hanggang ngayon magkaibigan parin kami, na He will always treat me as his own little sister.

Then there......... Tears burst out my eyes, smudging my mascara all over my face.

And it's all beacause of him. All beacuse of my best friend..... All thanks to 'Adam Xavier Enrique Lavigne'.