Broken//Dylan O'Brien

Chapter Twelve

Chapter Twelve
Azalea

It was nearly past 2 in the morning, we were all still camping.
Once everyone wakes up, in about 6 hours or so we were going to back to the city.
But like typical Azalea behavior- I could not fall asleep.
I took a seat on a large rock near the water and just looked out on to the lake.
I don't think I have been alone in my thoughts like this for quite some time.
My thoughts were sincere and pure-hearted and not ill-aching.
Which is something I wished could happen often, yet it rarely does.
I had no messy feelings towards Dylan, at the moment.
Tyler and him were friends again.
Seana and Tyler finally spoke and now were civil, I would even dare say friends.
Holland and I got along very well, we had even arranged a lunch outing later in the week.
I was perfectly content with everything, at least everything  that revolved around this barrier that was camping.

Then suddenly I saw ripples in the water from a rock.
I quickly looked behind me and it was Dylan.
He looked freshly woken up.
When he spoke it was more prominent.
“Hi.” he said, his voice was raspy. Which I found that I very much liked.
“I love it when the water has that ripple effect.” he said.
I didn't say anything, I just briefly stared at him.
And suddenly all these feelings of love and despair rushed back to everything that I was.
“Can't sleep either, huh?” he asked.
He was sitting on another large rock close by.
I turned my entire body so that I faced him.
“Y'know what I think of when I see those ripples in the water. I see myself. I see that I have this life full of ill-related ripples. I have this dead mother. A dead step-mother. A heart that only knows how to break, and then when it's not totally shit I find a way to ruin everything in my wake.” I quickly said.
He just looked at me for a minute.
Probably thinking I was crazy.
“And why do you thank that is, Azalea?” he asked.
“Because those around me are too good to me. I sometimes wonder why I was even given this life. I can barely control.” I told him.
He then quickly got up and took a seat next to me on the big rock. He grabbed one of my hands and rubbed his thumb along the side of it.
“Who broke your heart?” he whispered to her.
“You.” I breathed into his ear.
“I know.” he whispered. Then he kissed me on the forehead and held me for another twelve minutes.

The trip to the city was quite silent.
Dylan's parents and sister were following us.
They were going to stay at his house for a few days, I promised them that I would come over later today or tomorrow.
I honestly wanted to just go home and cuddled amongst my pillows.
Dylan dropped me off and I called Zariah to come over.
We watched gossip girl until I fell asleep.
When I woke up at 4 she was still there watching the show.
I thanked her for always being the friend I needed on cloud filled down.
I then ran downstairs and grabbed some vanilla ice cream, it was my favorite.
The creaminess of it helped me get through the day and my life.

I never did make it over to Dylan's. Zee and I basically stayed and binged watched tv.
I mean is there really any other way to do it?
It was nearly 10 and I was parked on the curb near Dylan's. Zee was with me, I forced her to come.
“Are you going in..or no?” she asked.
She had never met Dylan, maybe I should of just left her to sleep.
“His parents are in there.” I told her then I faced and looked at her.
Her eyes widened.
“Okay, and you decided I should meet him at this exact moment why?” she asked.
“That is a great question, maybe ask me again like next week.” I told her.
“Sure!” she answered.
“I went camping with him. His parents and sister were there, but I didn't talk to them much. I spent a lot of time with Holland. I am really nervous, what if they don't like me.” I told her.
“Holland, as in Banshee Lydia?” she asked.
I smiled at her. “Yes. She is so cool. She may have potential to replace you as the bestie.” I joked.
“Well if that is the case then why is she not here with you while you are freaking about meeting his parents?” she asked.
“Has anyone ever told you that you are very smart?” I asked her.
She laughed at that one.”No.”
“You and him aren't even dating, why are you freaking about meeting his parents. Like calm the fuck down Azalea.” she said.
“Well like typical Azalea behavior I did something that I probably should have not. I kissed him. Like I wanted to and everything so I don't see why I am regretting. I don't regret it. His mom just told me to come by, they are in town for a few days and she wants me to hang out with her I guess. They are really nice people. Why am I so fucking weird?” I said.
“OKAY! So you kissed him but you guys aren't dating?” she asked.
“Been there, done that. I mean of coarse I still love him, it's kind of hard not to. But like everytime I get in the relationship status with him I start freaking out and well he always messes something up. So I think this friends things is working for us.” I told her.
“With benefits.” she said.
I rolled my eyes at her.
“C'mon, let's get this over with.” I told her and opened my door.
I locked the car as we were walking towards Dylan's front door.
“Fro-yo after?” she asked.
“Yes, yes.” I answered back.