The Alpha Xavier

Chapter 9- Dear Life...

Aria's POV:

Dear Diary,

It's Xavier's birthday but his parents died a day after his birthday. It's going to be terrible. Andrew and Blu have become very close. I said happy birthday to him but he's always in his room in depression. Yeah I love him but he's become angry. Angry at me. He keeps on thinking I'm a rouge that killed his parents. It kind've makes me upset. But that's all I'm going to say.

From Aria.

I sighed closing my diary in disbelief.

I saw a glimpse of Xavier who was drinking beer. Tears pricked my eyes. I hate seeing him like this.

It's 9 o'clock in the night and he is drunk.

I walked up to him. " X - Xavier?" I shuttered.

"What?" He slurred. I saw his eyes turning black.

"Please Xavier stop it's your birthday," I whispered biting my lip as a stray tear fell from my cheek.

"I don't f*cking care Aria," He spat.
"My dad f*cking died with my f*cking mom and it's your fault,"

"Xavier-" I got cut of by a ice cold glare.
"Shut up!" He growled.

I glared at him.
"FINE! I F*CKING TRIED TO HELP YOU! AND WHAT DO YOU DO?! HUH? YOU F*CKING HURT ME. I HATE SEEING YOU LIKE THIS! I LOVE YOU XAVIER! AND WHAT DO YOU DO TO ME? YOU BROKE ME! I-I think we should have a break," My voice cracked when I said we need a break. My wolf whimpered.

'Mate hurt,' Ariana cried.
'He hurt us Ariana'

Xavier frowned.
I walked out of the room not daring to cry and see his face.

Tears filled my eyes. I roughly wiped them.
F*ck him.
F*ck me.
F*ck life.
F*ck the pack.

I ran out of the house emotionless.

I shifted and rested my head on my paws.
Ariana wanted to go to Xavier.

She kept on whimpering. I howled in pain and a stick stabbed my leg.
"Shift!" A person's voice suddenly shouted.

I shifted behind a tree putting on clothes.

"Brody?" I asked in suprise.
He widens his eyes and runs of. I shrugged and shifted again.

I let out a wolfy huff.
I began to fall asleep.

Xavier's POV:

I drank the beer in depression.

Aria walked in with tears in her eyes.
My wolf whimpered.

"X - Xavier?"

"What?" I slurred my eyes turning black.

"Please Xavier stop it's your birthday," She whispered.

"I don't f*cking care Aria," I snapped.
"My dad f*cking died with my f*cking mom and it's your fault," I spat.

"Xavier-" I cut her of with a glare.
"Shut up!" I growled regretting it.

She glared at me.
"FINE! I F*CKING TRIED TO HELP YOU! AND WHAT DO YOU DO?! HUH? YOU F*CKING HURT ME. I HATE SEEING YOU LIKE THIS! I LOVE YOU XAVIER! AND WHAT DO YOU DO TO ME?! YOU BROKE ME! I-I think we should have a break," My wolf whimpered.
I opened my mouth to say something but she walked out.

I smashed the beer bottle onto the ground.
"F*CK!" I messed up. Badly.

I ran my hand through my hair.
I kept on swearing and cursing loudly.

'F*ck you Xavier' snapped Jason ending the mind link.

I went into the office knocking everything down. I held a picture of me and Aria.

"DAMN IT!" I threw the picture into the wall making it shatter.
Smashing. Smashed everywhere. I hurt her. I hurt my wolf. I cannot cry. I'm a Alpha. I growled running another hand through my hair.

I messed up.

Aria's POV:

I sighed laying on my old bed in my family's house.
It'd been a week. And Ariana was clawing and howling in pain wanting to go to Xavier.
I love him. But I don't want anything to happen to ma again.

"Ari dinners ready," Louis knocked.
"Comin'," I said walking to the kitchen.
We had steak,mash and green beans.

'Mate,' Howled Ariana.
I try not to howl or whimper.
I ate a little piece of the stake.
"Arwia can you pwease pick mwe up tomworrow?" Asked Jackson.
I ruffled his hair smiling.
"Of course Jack," I smiled.
He gave me a toothy grin before running up to his room.

I went into my bedroom grabbing the razer.

I cut my wrist carefully. I winced before it healed but it left a pink line.

There was over 10 cuts on my wrists.
I began to cut my other wrist.
I suddenly began feeling dizzy.
My cut wasn't healing.
S*it! I shook my head.

After a while it healed. I sighed relieved that I didn't die.
I walked to my wardrobe grabbing a pair of shorts that had spongebob on.
And I grabbed a baby pink loose tank top that said 'Sleep Is All I Want'

I changed into the clothes and walked to my bed cuddling with the covers.

I was cold even though the heater was on. I need to be with Xavier.

Tears filled my eyes. I shook my head going to sleep pretending Xavier is next to me.

Xavier's POV:

I watched as Ari cried.
As soon as she fell asleep. As I saw her actually asleep I walked into her room.

I softly stroked her cheek. It's been a hard week without her. I kissed her forehead. She shifted under my kiss.
"I'm sorry bébé," As soon as I said that I walked out of her window. I watched as she woke up confused. She go out shivering and walked out of her double doors that went to her balcony.

She looked around nearly seeing me.

"Xavier if that's you I-I'm sorry,"
She walked back inside closing her doors still confused.

I watched as she went into her bed.
"Me to. Me to bébé," I whispered running back to the Pack house.

Aria's POV:

I felt tingles. I shifted. I woke up seeing my balcony doors slightly open.

I walked out to my balcony.
"Xavier if that you I-I'm sorry," I walked back into my room closing my doors and went into my bed again.

I hope it was him.

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Another chapter.
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I am planning to create chapters every 2 days.

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I got school tomorrow and I'm really sick.
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But hopefully I will do a update tomorrow or today.
Because as I said I'm really sick and I'm in bed trying to go to sleep. But I always feel dizzy, I got a stomach ache, I'm loosing my voice and my legs are really numb so it's difficult to walk I always fall or limp everywhere like a old person.
:( but I will update as soon as I can.
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-RainForLife