Lies//Frerard

3.

i think the whole story will be gerards pov so im not gonna write it

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I tried to understand what he just said.
"Are you mad at me?"

I always thought he was the one who hated me after the thing I've done. I wasn't mad at him at all. I shook my head. He seemed like he was relieved. I asked him the same thing.

"Are you mad at me?" I looked up. I looked into his eyes. He was scared. I could see it in his eyes. Also he looked like he was going to cry and he was slightly shaking.

"No I'm not." Really? I didn't expect him to say this.

"Hey, want to get up because I made breakfast so maybe you want to eat something." He lifted me up. I smiled. For the first time. Real. He smiled too. It was like the old times.

"Why did you bring me here Frank? I thought you wouldn't want to see me anymore. Why are you back now?" I was sad and angry. He left me and I suffered all those years. He didn't know how I felt. He won't understand. Ever.

"Do you want to leave? You can if you want, you know. I'm not forcing you." Of course he is not. He is the good guy here right? Yeah, yeah whatever Frank.

"It's not that. You left me and now you are back and you are talking to me. Do you have an idea what happened to me after you left? Of course you don't. Because you weren't here, with me. You could just forgive me but you didn't. I told you I was drunk and I didn't know what I was doing. I told you I was sorry and I fucked up everything. But you were so stubborn and you didn't care. You just left. I was so fucking sad and Mikey tried to help me. He tried so hard but he couldn't do anything. Where were you then?" I was angry. I really was.

If you knew what kind of person I was, you would knew that I would never get angry. Frank knew that too and because of that he looked scared. Well I didn't give a single fuck.

"I-I'm sorry, I don't know what to say. I didn't know you felt like that. I was mad yes. Because I caught you with- you know. I thought you hated me. I couldn't talk to you because I was so sad too. I truly loved you, you know." He looked down. I knew he was crying. He always looked down when he was crying. I wasn't angry anymore. He looked so sad.

I hugged him,  and let him cry into my shoulder. He kept saying, "I am sorry." or "I am an idiot." over and over. I shushed him and tilted his head up. 

He was beautiful. Even when he was crying. I cared about him so much but he didn't know that. At all. I wanted to kiss him and tell him that everything is going to be okay but then I would probably lose him again and I truly didn't want that to happen. I wanted to make things better again. Just like the old times.

My phone started ringing. I sighed. I looked at Frank again.

"Go answer it no problem, I'm okay don't worry." He smiled a little. I nodded and looked at the screen. It was Mikey. Shit I forgot about him. I answered it.

"Hey Mikes what's up? Sorry I forg-"

"Don't you dare to say that you are sorry. I was so worried Gerard don't do that ever again. God I thought you were dead. Where are you anyway?" I needed to tell him where I was but then he was going to be pissed. But he needed to learn the truth.

"I am with Frank."

"What?! Are you crazy? You were sad because of him and now you are back to him? I can't believe you. Wow.." He hung up before I could say anything. Ugh what was I going to do now? I needed to go home now.

Frank was lying on the couch. I came near him. He was sleeping and he looked so peaceful. I kissed his cheek and left a note. Fuck I missed him so much.

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helloooo this chapter is so short ugh i cant write long chapters like it's impossible but hey i wrote it so yes