Stay I Need You (Luke Brooks and Jai Brooks)

Chapter 15 - Jump

Chapter 15

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Jai's POV

It was midnight and everyone was asleep but I knew rosé wasn't she never fell asleep until really late, so I got out of bed quietly trying not to wake Luke and walked down the hall way to we're rosé was meant to be sleeping I knocked on the door No reply and then I knocked again still no reply, I opened the door and she wasn't in the bed, but I noticed that the balcony door was open I walked out of the balcony door, she wasn't there, but then I heard sniffling she was on the roof  

"Rosé what are you doing" I asked a little worried  

"Sitting for now” she said, she was crying, I climbed up and sat next to her  

"What do you mean by for now” I asked  

"I just mean for now because one day I may not sit, I may stand or I may jump" she said staring at the moon you could see the tears in her eyes, her eyes were full of pain an hurt and to think we caused all of this, we ruined her life ,me and Luke  

"Rosé promise me that you will never jump” I said with a tear rolling down my cheek it hurt me to see her like this I still loved her and I was never going to stop loving her  

"No I won't promise you Jai, because one day it might become too much for me" she said  

"Okay but think about this once you jump I jump rose, because What’s the point of living if you’re not here with me” I said crying more, but what I said I meant because what was the point, I loved her to much to live without her,  

"Jai you can't do that it's not fair "she said Turing to me with tears flooding down her cheeks  

"If you’re not going to promise me that then promise me this, that you will let me help you get through this” I said looking her in the eyes  

"I promise but I’m never going to be that girl you used to know" she said hugging her knees she only had a t-shirt and converse on  

"I don't expect you to be that same girl” I said hugging her side and resting my head in her shoulder  

"Jai my heart hurts so much, why did it have to happen to me for, what did I do so wrong for this all to happen to me" she cried  

"Rosé I don't know I can't answer that, but I promise to try and make things better, I promise to try and take away that pain in your heart, I will try my best because I love you and I always will rosé I promise I will try " I said at this point I was fully crying "rosé tell me the full reason of why you self harm because I need to know to be able to help you" I added on  

"You won't understand Jai "she said  

"Rosé I will understand believe me and if I don't straight away I will try my best to " I said facing her  

"Okay, I’ll tell you but let's go inside because it’s so cold” she said with a sniffle I climbed down and then helped her down then once we got in I hugged her she was freezing  

"Come on let get under the blanket, your freezing" I said we got under  

" Jai I hurt myself because after I left you guys I felt like I couldn't be alone like I was lonely and never in my life had I felt lonely I was trying to adjust to it but I just couldn’t, then I blamed myself for everything that happened all the arguments and I blamed correctly because it was all my fault, and I hurt myself because I needed to because I was a horrible person so I deserved that pain, but then I met Sam on the Internet and he stopped me from doing it because he knew that it wasn't right for me but he was struggling with life , but he helped me and when he killed himself I was the last person he spoke to and I saw him die and that set it all off because it’s my fault" she explained this to me and I understood perfectly  

"Rosé I know you won't believe me but try none of this was your fault none of it” I said  

"Jai but I can't stop feeling like this, I’ve tried hard and i hate to look at what I've done to myself it’s horrible" she said  

"Show me your arm rose" I said  

"I don't want to" she said  

"Show me, please" I said  

"Okay" she said she showed me her arm their were loads of small scars and then 5 deep cuts  

"It's horrible" she said after she said that I kissed her wrist 5 times

Roses POV

He kissed my wrist 5 times, he didn't care about the scars and cuts, he just wanted me to be happy, but it was hard to be happy feeling like this .I just wanted to cry all the time. But I felt safer in Jai's arms, so much safer than when I was in Luke's or Sam’s ,Maybe I was in love with Jai but I wasn't counting on my feeling at the moment because my emotions were a mess and my head was all over the place  

"Rosé your moving in with us again” he said  

"Okay" I said I felt this urge to kiss him so I did but he pulled away "what's wrong" I asked  

"I don't want you to kiss me in this state of mind rose you aren't very stable at the moment and I just don't want to be that fall on guy" he said looking down  

"So you don't want me to kiss you” I asked  

"Oh I do just not now, not when you’re not sure about things" he said with a small smile "it's getting late now let's get some sleep” he added on I lay down and then he turned the lights out, then climbed into the bed with me, 

I felt his warm arms around my waist, and he pulled my close, I felt safe in his arms and I didn't want to be anywhere else. 

"Thank you Jai" I said as I closed my eyes, I felt his warm breath as he breathed out  

"It's okay princess" he said then I fell asleep