Justice. (Editing)

If i ever lost him

(Raheem in the media)

"Yeah I'm ready. We're you at?" I asked Suzie through the phone.

"I'm outside right now. Come on. I'm trying to get to the VIP booth. Before the boys do." Suzie said.

"Coming." I hung up my phone and admired myself into the mirror. My hair was curly and soft.

My bodycon red cut out dress complimented my eyes and glowing skin. My lips were painted clear and I sported some pink yellow bottoms that did a little something to my legs and height.

I had to admit I looked extra good. I don't look like a hoe I look like I'm about to go out. Which I'm about to do.

I went outside were Cam and Suzie were waiting.

"Get in."they said. I shrugged and slid into the backseat.

We drove to Angels looking fly in Suzie's cherry red Lexus. We talked and laughed until we got to the club. As soon as we stepped in the club all eyes landed on....me. I bit the inside of my lip nervously. I hated people especially men looking at me.

"Why is everybody looking at me?'

"Because your looking sexy. Get used to it." Suzie said smacking my butt. I jumped and laughed.

All of us went to the VIP booth reserved for my brother and his crew. Plus Riley and his.

Riley and my brother run opposite operations . They have there own shit going on. Riley is a hit man really. He's not really in the drug game. He does the killing right along with my brother.

Riley And Money have been bestfriends since grade school. So both of them know what line to cross and which to not even step close too.

Riley has took a big step over one.

Having sex with me.

I sat down on the curved sofa comfortably. I crossed my legs and fixed the ankle bracelet Riley gave be last time I saw him. This was his meaning of a fucking apology. It was a beautiful apology though.

He put the ankle bracelet on his self. No he didn't say he was sorry. He has the inability to show or say any emotion. I have the ability to forgive though especially forgive him.

"Ayeeeeee! Wassup Ladies!" My brother came up to the booth loud as shit and his boys followed.

His group was really big. It was like 20+ deep now but trust there was more. Excluding groupies. Riley came in quietly though. Which is usual. Guess what else..

He came in with the same chick from thanksgiving. Are you kidding me?

You know what fuck him. My inner self said been there done that.

My brother looked at me and smiled big. I did the same. He came over to me and gave me a bear hug.

"Hey big brother!" I said

"Hey shy." He said kissing my temple. He pulled back and then his eyes were wide.

"The hell you got on guh?!" He semi yelled.

"What? It's cute right. Something different."

"Something different my ass. Do you not see all the fucking Niggas looking at you?" He said over protectively. I sighed.

"Raheem seriously? I could have a trash bag on and men will still stare at me. I can take care of myself." I said a little irritated.

"I know that sweetie but niggas is crazy. I just want you safe. Plus I gotta talk to you about something." He said.

"What's that?"

"Um some niggas out in Baltimore targeting me so I wanna make sure you and the rest of the girls are safe. So I'm sending Suzie with Jewelz. Cam is going to stay with her mom for a couple of months. You. You gon stay with Riley."

"Wait what about you?" I asked sadly. Ignoring the fact I was gon be living with Riley for awhile.

"I'm do what I gotta do. Take care of these niggaz."

"What if.."

"Shh I got this taking care of. Imma be fine shy." A tear slipped down my eye. I quickly wiped it.

My brother pulled me into a big hug. Like he used to when I was a little baby.

"I want you to be safe Raheem I'm not playing. You the only family I got. Plus you gotta a little one on the way. You need to think about getting out the game. For you and Cameron and the baby."

"I know this babe girl. I gotcha mom and dad told me to take care of you. That's what imma do." I pulled back.

"You know I love you right"

"I love you too pee body." I pushed him for calling me by my old nickname from daycare. He busted out laughing.

"So what you gotta talk to me about?"

"What you mean?"

"Sweetie I'm not stupid. Tell me what's up?"

"Me and Riley..." I was cut off by him.

"I know." He said calmly.

"What? Wait how?"

"He told me." I looked at him confused. He smiled and fixed his SnapBack.

"Told you what?"

"You two had sex. Meaning you gave your virginity to him. Am I right?" My brother was so intimidating when he was nice. I put my head down.

"You love him?" I put my covered my face and put my head down. I cried a little.

"Yeah. Unfortunately." I said laughing a little wiping my tears.

"He loves you too."

"He has a funny way of showing it." I said.

"Man. Riley ain't no emotional ass nigga and you knew that. Riley does love you though truthfully. If he didn't he wouldn't be looking at you right now to see if you was okay." He said looking in Riley's direction. I rolled my eyes.

"Who is that Cleo bitch?"

"Do I hear my little sister getting jealous?" My brother said nudging me.

"I just don't like her though. Riley claims he never fucked her but by the way she dresses and is stuck by his side it's hard to believe."

"Hahaha Cleo has been trying to get Riley to fuck her for some years now but he's never done it. She a hoe and he only keeps her around because she makes you jealous."

"I really hate his ass." I said.

"Sure you do lil sis but let me go check on my baby momma." My brother said hugging me. I nodded and then he left. My brother is like a mother father and brother in one. God if anything happens to him the whole USA will suffer. Swear on that.

Derrick on the side ~~>