The Man of My Dreams

Inside the Mind of My Demon Stalker

It’d been four hours since we’d last talked- me and the boy from my dreams.  The feeling of him in my head was gone and I was relieved for some peace and quiet.  At the same time though, I had a feeling this meant something worse was happening.  The TV playing was only a distraction from my worries.  I’d been trying to find him in my head, to see if he was somehow hiding. 

Racking my brain like this was tiring and I was about to give up, when I felt something click.  If he could talk to me through my thoughts and be in my dreams, could I do the same to him?  Sure he was a demon with powers, but it was worth a shot.  I closed my eyes and searched for a way into his mind. 

Darkness overcame my sub-consciousness with a bright light ahead.  Swimming through the vast emptiness, I reached the blinding light.  With a sudden flash, I was in a room.  The walls were of rock and the floor was too.  I was in a cave?  The only lighting was coming from a lantern on the wall, leaving half of the room still in shadows.  The only furniture in my line of sight was a wooden desk topped with journals.  I tried to turn and look and looked around the room, but I couldn’t.  Did I fall asleep?  Was this another controlled dream? 

A tall man walked into the room through a door.  He had short black hair and black holes of eyes.  “Blayne, how are you?” 

For some reason, I felt great fear for the man standing in front of me.  His voice was full of threat and danger.  “Good sir and you?”  A voice came from behind me.  I tried to look behind to see who it was that spoke, but I still couldn’t look around. 

“I’m not very good.  Blayne, I’ve talked a long while with the others and I’ve got bad news.  You only have until midnight to get information.  Do you have anything new yet?” 

“No sir, I do not have anything new.  Thank you for stalling as long as you could.  I will try harder these next few hours to get information.” 

“Good.  You’re a smart boy; it shouldn’t be too hard for you to get her location.”  The person behind me chuckled darkly.  It was a chuckle that reminded me of someone else’s…. the boy’s in my dreams.  It had worked; I was in his mind right now!  I was seeing what he saw and hearing what he heard.  “If you cannot deliver any more information to us by midnight, I’ll send you straight to Hell myself,” the man’s voice left no trace of humor. 

“I understand.”

“And if you fail us, we will have no choice but to send someone else after her.  A lilim will take over your job.”  I felt a greater fear rise in the boy, Blayne.  No, they’ll hurt her.  A lilim would torture her until death.  The thoughts of Blayne sounded crystal clear in my ears, as if he had spoken them.  I could hear the raw emotion in them.  “Meet me back here at 11:50 and report to me your status.  Now go.”  I won’t let you have her; I won’t let any of you touch her. 

Sensing that he was pushing his way back intomy mind, I let go of the world around me.  The room swirled and everything went back to a black emptiness.  Feeling he was only a little while behind me, I found the light leading back into my mind and slipped into it. 

My heart was pounding and I was panting when my eyes opened.  The boy, Blayne, was supposed to tell people where I was and they were going to hurt me.  All I had to do was fight him until midnight and then his own people would get rid of him for me.  I glanced at the clock; in three hours I’d never have to worry about him again.  He’d be in Hell, where he deserved to be. 

Hello Halley.  Did you miss me?  “No.”  Well that’s quite disappointing, because I missed you.  “Are you ever serious?  Or do you only speak sarcasm and asshole?”  Well, someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed.  I know you’re upset I left.  I promise it won’t happen again love.”  I sighed.  Arguing with him was pointless. 

My stomach growled and I went to the kitchen to grab something to eat.  My pantry was almost empty since my parents had been gone for a week, and I was too lazy to get groceries.  Now regretting not shopping for groceries earlier, I grabbed the almost empty Doritos bag.  Those are really fattening.  “Your face is really fat,” I replied dryly.  No one ever said my come backs were very good.  Do you even remember what my face looks like?  “Yeah… no.”  As much as I hated to admit it, I was dying to know what he looked like.  I wanted a face to think of to go along with his voice.  Having a face and body to visualize would make me feel a little more sane talking to a voice in my head.  Would you like to know?  “No, weirdo!  Why should I care what the voice in my head looks like?  Honestly, I don’t,”  I lied.     

I looked down at my hand in the Doritos bag and realized in my frustration, I’d eaten the rest of the chips.  After walking it to the trashcan, I turned back to the TV.  For being a good girl, you tend to lie a lot.  I’m not answering him; it’ll only encourage his behavior.  You think about me a lot.  I don’t think you really hate me.  I think you like me Halley.  Do you like me love?  This guy really knew how to press my buttons.  “No!  No I do not like you!  You come out of nowhere for no reason and screw with me!  Do you what it’s like to have someone in your head?  To not have any privacy?  To constantly fear going to sleep or thinking too much?  Why can’t you just leave me alone?  This is not right!  You have no reason to be doing this.  I hate you.” 

There was silence for a little while, as if he were thinking of what to say.  When he did speak, it was full of the same raw emotion I’d heard in his voice earlier in his room.  I may not be right in doing it, but I do have a reason.  There is a reason for everything love.  And you alone, may be the reason for everything. 

The anger that had bubbled inside my check now went out, leaving me feeling empty and confused.  Why did he have to speak in such riddles?  Why couldn’t he just tell me what was going on?  Why did he have to act like he cared?  Why pull an act like this?  Was it to trick me into giving him information about me?  If so, it wasn’t working. 

I don’t even like what I’m doing Halley, but I have no choice.  This is who I am and that is who you are.  You can’t change destiny, no matter how hard you try.  It is better to just accept it. 

Accept what?  I didn’t know what was happening so how could I accept it?  “Go away,” my voice cracked. 

Let me in Halley, trust me. 

“Trust you?  Why should I trust you?” 

Close your eyes and fall asleep Halley.  No, this trick wasn’t going to work.  I wasn’t as stupid and naïve as he thought.  I could be strong and fight this, fight him.  Please love just drift off to sleep for a little while.  I promise I will not hurt you.  Maybe not that strong…  Come to me.  And with that, I fell into a deep sleep.