This is the most fun I've ever had

Chapter 1

Dan pov

I was gonna tell him today. Honestly. But, he's straight.  So I didn't.  I wanna tell him. I do. Really. But I can't tell him. He's straight, and indon't want our friendship to be ruined because I might have a slight crush.

Honestly, I was straight too. At least I was until i met Phil Lester. He's just so perfect. With his piercing blue eyes, adorable smile, and let's not forget how cute it is when his tongue sticks out when he laughs. Since the second I met him I knew. And I've always wanted to tell him. But I know what he'll think. He'll think I'm a freak. Nothing more than a dirty faggot that isn't worth anything. And I don't wanna risk our friendship. But what if he feels the same. And I know it's a huge what if but...

"Dan? I've Been calling your name for ages. Dan? Earth to Dan," phils voice jerked me from m thoughts. He was the only one who could do that. When I saw him I smiled instantly.

"Sorry. Lost in thought I guess."

"Oh haha. Wanna watch a movie?"

"Yah sure."

We walked to the couch and Phil put in the movie. He sat down beside me and started talking.

"Phil when you talk through an entire film it's hardly considered watching it," I joked. He laughed. It made me smile. His laugh was so cute. It made me want to kiss him. I started leaning in and closed my eyes then realized what I was doing. I shot up.

"Dan? You okay?"

"Yah...uh...I need to use the toilet." I got up and went into the bathroom. Snap out of it Howell. Just pull it together for one movie. Holding back tears, I made my way to the couch.

"Are you alright? Something looks off." Shit. Phil always knew when I was upset.

"Ya ya everything's fine. Well, kinda."

"What is it Dan?"

"Oh uh nothing." That was close. I almost told him. Would it really be that bad? I knew he would accept me for being gay we'd been friends long enough for that but would he accept me being gay for him? He might not say it aloud but there would always be a new distance between us.

"Dan? Dan? You're zoning out again."

"What? Oh sorry did you say something?"

Phil pov

I wanted to kiss him. I almost did. When he was leaning in, I almost kissed him. Then he pulled away and left. He probably didn't know what he was doing. Who would ever like me? Especially not Dan. He was too beautiful. He was perfect. Everything about him was perfect. I kinda liked him. I guess. I'd never really thought about it. I always just knew that Dan wasn't an ordinary friend. I mean usually people don't wanna kiss their best friend.

"Okay now you're zoning out. Seriously you keep mumbling. What is it?"

"Uh..."

"Philly cmon you know you're gonna tell me eventually so save us both some time and tell me now." I knew he was right. But I couldn't bring myself to tell him I was gay for him. Anyways, if this was the last time I was gonna see him, I wanted to make a good memory. So I kissed him. At first he stiffened, then he relaxed and leaned in. I could kiss him forever. His lips were as perfect as the rest of him. Suddenly I pulled away. What was I doing? This was Dan! Sure I may like him but it's probably just that he makes me happier than everyone else. I wasn't gay!

"So...are you gay?"

"No Dan but you obviously are the way you kissed me back. Leave me alone, faggot." Then I got up and slammed the door to my room, abandoning the movie.