Words Fail

Oh, honey

I'm so sorry

That is what you tell me.

But I shake my head.

You mention before.

But before was then,

And this is now.

And that love just isn't relevant anymore.

We're clinging to this idea

That's been dead for years.

I beg of you.

Don't let this corpse hang around us anymore.

Let's bury the past where it belongs,

In the past.

I don't want to talk about this anymore.

Don't want to reminisce.

Because I know if I do,

I'll fall in this spiraling hole.

And I fear I'll never resurface.

I'll forget how to breathe without you.

I don't want you to be my crutch.

And you don't either.

If it's fear that's holding you back,

Fear that I may hate you,

Know that isn't the case.

We aren't the same anymore.

And it's not just me.

You were the unsteady winds,

That came and went.

Never steady.

A comet that could never be chained down.

Not by me,

Not by anyone.

I won't be the one to hold you back.

Turn and walk away.

And I promise you won't see my tears.

Oh, honey.

Surely, you didn't think I wouldn't notice?

That I'd pretend that I don't know

That you've moved on.

That you have time for me,

You just aren't willing to make it.

You must know that excuses aren't going to cut it.

And if you're gonna continue down that road,

I won't feel bad about doing the same.

Surely you must know that I'm not naive?

I have dreams,

But I also have plans.

And I don't get so lost in fantasies,

That I'm oblivious to the truth.

Oh, honey I invent dreams to ignore the truth.

I have always known.

I have always noticed.

I just deceived myself into thinking,

That maybe,

Just maybe,

Things could change.

But people don't change.

They just get better at lying.

And you were the greatest liar.

I think,

Even you began to believe those lies.

I can't imagine a world without you,

But I don't have the luxury

To make that a reality.

Not when you blatantly refuse to do anything.

When did you become so fearful?

So afraid to talk to me.

So afraid that someone might actually precieve you,

For you?

You had a chance with me.

And you squandered it.

And I sense, that despite moving on,

You may miss me.

That you might think you wanted this too,

But I wouldn't believe it for a moment.

And even if it were true,

Our time has long passed.

You never fought for me.

You were a coward.

A coward who never even fought for themself.

Oh, honey.

What fools we've been.