Words Fail

I fell

I fell for a heart that beats so slow

It's blacken and cold,

And is as heavy as lead.

I fell for hands so fleeting

I could have imagined them.

I fell for a smile so mischevious 

It made a good girl turn rotten.

I fell for eyes that glistened and shined

The stars felt dim in comparison.

I fell for lips where sweet, silky lies slipped

So sweet it would have given you cavities.

I feel so effortlessly

So quickly.

It was like I had blinked

And fallen into a deep slumber.

And when I opened my eyes

The dream had faded.

The looks you give me, 

With all the earnesty and sincerity you can muster,

Consume me like a plague.

And the thoughts and feelings

I have so deeply rooted in me

Seem to betray all that I've aspired to be.

And try as I might

I can't help but love you.

And I can't pretend 

That when you walk into the room

 The hairs on my arm stand

And my heart beat quickens.

Or that my skins begin to burn

And shiver in a haste of contradictions.

So if I can't pretend

I'll try to escape.

I'll retreat to the abyss

Where thoughts are born and die on my tongue.

I'll let the depth swallow me whole.

And there I'll conjure a dream from the fog

And I'll live happily content in the illusion

That when I fell
I fell into your arms.