do you ever just
walk into a room
full of people,
wanting to hear
the joyous sounds of their voices
as their laughter fills the air,
and the loud music
that pumps through the speakers
as you see cold drinks
being passed out everywhere?
and the shouts of your friends
calling your name
and grabbing your hand
so that you can join their little game?
and do you ever just
walk into a room
wanting to feel
the excitement going through your veins,
and knowing that it's all real?
but instead all you can hear
Is the faint sound of your voice
echoing in the background
and filling you with fear.
all you can feel
Is the numbness of your knees,
as you try to pull yourself up
before you fall apart and scream.
all you can feel
is the heaviness
In the back of your mind,
reminding you that you're not wanted
and you're not worth anyone's time.
and no matter how much you want to,
no matter how much you try,
you can't stop those feelings,
from coming back to you
every time.
