sometimes, i would lie awake at night
counting the holes on my ceiling,
and thinking about every word i said
in that very same morning.
from every glance thrown my way,
and every response i tried to make,
i always end up with the same thought..
why
am
i
so
stupid?
I don't know how to speak
or laugh
or smile
or so much as function like a normal human being.
and it kills me to have to think,
why nothing ever turns out the way i want it to be.
and it kills me to have to think about
how easy this has always been for you,
and how you can do everything so
perfectly
so faultlessly
without constantly wondering
what everyone else
must think of you.
so how do you do it?
how can you be so good at
everything?
teach me how to be like you.
tell me how i can be
so
much
better
.
