Tied....Their protector

Life with Phi

~~~~GARRETT'S POV~~~~

It's been a year sense the accident.......

Phi has never fully healed from the Trauma M put her through and she never fully started to trust me.

But I am ok with that, I never expected her to love me, not after the horrible things I did to her; but somehow, somewhere in herself she found the strength to continue to love me.

I'll never be able to repay her, not after all the things she's gone through just to have me glance back at her.

Slowly I turn and look at her, small strains of her hair flutter over her face and her soft breath makes them move as she breathes.

I reach out and move her hair, as my fingers touch her skin; she groans sleepily and cuddles closer to me, I embrace her and hold her to me as though she will vanish just like she did at the party with Bryce.

It was so fast and sudden, its crazy to think that the ones we love and take for granted can disappear so quickly from our lives and if we are not paying attention, there is a chance they will never come back.

I kiss her forehead and hold her hand that rests on my bare chest, I glance down to the ring I gave her a week ago; you should have seen her face when she saw me get on one knee. It was like a thousand fireworks going off at one in her, a blast of mixed emotions.

She hesitated for a few minutes when I asked her and it scared me to death, but I knew it was because of my past and hers. Phi doesn't like to talk about her family much, but they were a hard family to forget; her father was a brave man, a loving man who cared for his family more than anything else, he loved his tie which soon became his wife and they raised a beautiful family together.

Their household affairs are mostly a mystery to us outsiders and only the ones who where in it knew what was truly going on behind those big doors to their fancy house on the edge of the beach. Though from the way Phi avoids the subject whenever anyone asks, I get the idea she doesn't want people to know what was really going on.

It was big news to country when her family was killed; I know the basics, such as her mother was murdered along with her two little brothers, while her father lost it and went after the murder.

I close my eyes and remember meeting her father for the first time......

He was tall and very intimidating, I still recall his words to me as though they were magic that a magician showed me from his magical hat.

"Garrett my boy, soon you will be family. You will be like a son to me and I cant wait to see how you cherish my baby girl. Promise me that you wont kill her innocence to quickly, that you will ravish her in affection and love, with kindness and a peaceful life from now on? My little girl has gown up now, but the things that she has gone through have made her grow up too quickly; too, too quickly and I am a afraid I missed the little moments that I could have savored more. Don't let those little moments pass in a blink of an eye like I have, because even though I can't turn back time and spend them with her, she will soon be yours and when she does, it is your duty to her and yourself to watch her feel loved and to grown into the piece that you've been missing this whole time."

"Garrett?" Phi pulls me out of my memory and I look down at her, she rubs her eyes with the back of her hand, but doesn't move from my tight hold on her, instead she curls into me more and its true what her father said; she is my piece that I have been missing all these years.

"Yeah?" I ask kissing her forehead.

"What is on your mind?"

I smile a little, I swear she can read my mind sometimes.

"You." I whisper

"What about me?" she tilts her head back and looks at me and I kiss the end of her nose.

"How I wasted so much time being a screw up and making you hurt. I could have been married to you already and we could have kids and we could have a family of our own. I should have done better...." I say looking away from her eyes that are glued on my face.

"Why not now?" she whispers.

I look at her with a raised eyebrow, did she not just here how sorry I am?

"Why don't we start from now on and until forever. I mean, I love you more than anything......" She glances up at me, "And I think you somewhat love me too." I stop her right there and roll on top of her.

"You think I somewhat love you too?" I question and she nods shyly, "just think?" I ask and she nods again. I shake my head and kiss her deeply, she squirms under me, but I don't back down; no this time I am going to show her how much I freaking love her.

"Garrett." she gasps under me as I start to kiss her neck, her labored breathing and the subtle stress in her voice makes me more hot and bothered then ever before.

"Phi, I don't think you realize how much I love you." I say between kisses on her neck and jawline.

"How much?" she says teasingly and I can't help but smirk.

Slowly I wrap her legs around my waist and kiss her swiftly, then roll us so that she sits in my lap.

"I would do anything for you, whatever you need I would get it, whatever you desire I will make sure that you have it, that no matter what time or what day it is I will show you how much I love you every second of every day if that's what you want." I put my hand on the side of her face and tangle my fingers in her hair, making sure that our foreheads are pressed together, while I hold her hands over my heart which is beating rapidly.

She sighs happily and it makes me smile too.

"Then can you promise me something?"

"Anything baby." I kiss her lips and she kisses me back with longing feeling

"Will you always love me? and not be afraid to show it, to express it, to let it be known to others and I promise in return that I will do the same." she looks up at me throw her lashes and my heart speeds up.

"I'd wish for nothing more."

we both lean in, kissing hungrily as though it is to make the promise sealed.

"Phi?"

"Hmm." she hums as she kisses my neck making goose bumps raise on my skin

"I love you." I hold her a little tighter and she does the same to me.

"I love you too." she whispers as though she is afraid if she says it any louder that we will wake up and all of this was just a dream.

"I love you more." i whisper right into her ear and she laugh, half sobs and kisses me roughly.

If this is what it feels like to let people in again, Then I hope to never close Phi off again. This happiness and peaceful feeling that makes my stomach float and feel like there is no gravity then I hope it never disappears; lucky for me, it doesn't have to, because I now have my tie, tied to me.

I am forever tied to her and I wouldn't have it any other way.