The Sharpest Lives FRERARD FERARD

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Song:

It Never Ends- Bring me The horizon

(*~~* means he's dreaming)

Gerard's P.O.V.

When I was a kid I had this fear.

I was afraid that I would get lost and not know where I was,

I was afraid that I would lose everything. Afraid that I would get stolen and never see anyone ever again,

I was afraid I would die.

*~~*

I was in a white room. White walls, and a white floor. It sempt like the room could go on forever. I tried touching the walls, but there was nothing there.

I could not control my body.

It felt like i was moving. But I had no reference point to show that I was moving so I couldn't prove it. As I was standing/falling pictures of memories filled the wall. It was of my past.

First, it showed me the first time I had my heart broken, I was in seventh grade.

I remember it perfectly:

I walked into the hall and to the bathroom to meet my boyfriend, but when I got there he was standing with his back to me. I saw a hand come on to his back. The hand had a manicure, and a gold ring on the middle finger.

I walked to the side, he was with the meanest girl in school.

I know teen drama.

Well he was the first one I lost.

**

The pictures started to shift to another memory.

It was of Mikey, when he got jumped. He was only sixteen and people were doing that stuff to him.

I was walking down the road trying to find him.

I heard a scream of pain, and followed the sound.

He was behind a fence, and was all bloody and had cuts on his legs.

He also had a black eye.

Worst of all, he was naked.

Broken.

He gave me the saddest look possible.

Then he started crying.

That was the eyes of someone that lost hope

**

They shifted again to the time my mom got hit by her boyfriend.

He hit her as hard as he could.

I walked in the room and she was crying.

He was hurting her alot.

There was blood everywhere.

He tried to shoot her, but I was holding a class plate that was quite light.

So I broke it over his head.

He fell, but that didnt stop him. He got up and tried to shoot me but there was a knife laying on the counter and I got it and slashed his arm.

It was violent...

My mom got up and ran to the phone.

He was drunk, and had a gun.

I knew that stuff like that never ended well.

Mikey walked in and he tried shooting him, but luckily he missed by one inch.

I ran to the fridge and got a beer bottle.