The fallen angels

Seven

•Alex pov(sorry)•

I woke up on the couch, my head pounding from the alcohol.

The words that Devin yelled at me yesterday just kept on playing in my head.

Damn it.

I lost her yet again.

She hated me , but I can't blame her , I hate me too.

I made Devin a promise that I wouldn't cut if she wouldn't , but that promise was gone now and she has already cut even after the promise.

I walked to the bathroom, and closed and locked the door.

I grabbed the blades, my hands shaking.

I sat on the cold , hard floor.

I let a tear slip, down my cheek and onto the floor.

I lost her, the only thing that mattered in my entire life.

I made many, many cuts.

I thought I was gonna die, right there, on the bathroom floor.

I laid there, thoughts running through my mind.

I just wanted to die, in that moment.

Devin hates me but I didn't even know why.

I mean I kind of do because I said we should take a break.

I probably hurt her a lot by saying that.

I didn't mean it, it just came out.

I really messed up.

I let my wrists bleed , onto the floor.

I felt so alone in that moment.

I was begging to die.

Another tear slid down my cheek, onto the floor.

Then another, and another, and so on.

I just wanted everything to end.

I get cyber bullied, a lot.

People call me emo and gothic and it just kind of hurts I guess it's just fucked up in a way.

It just really hurts and I don't know how to get away from it, as in the suicidal thoughts and getting bullied.

I just don't know anymore, about anything.

• Devin pov (finally) •

I yelled at Alex...

I meant it but at the same time I didn't.

Deep down I felt really bad.

But on the outside I was glad I spoke up to him.

I didnt want him to save me.

I wanted to be dead.

I just wanted my life to be over.

Everyone hated me and called me names like slut and whore and emo and even slutty emo.

I just wanted it to end.

Everything.

And with that, I drifted off to sleep.

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• authors note •

There are like 150 reads!!

This is amazing!!

Still yet again no active readers though...

I need comments/ideas for the next couple chapters!!!

Sorry also because this chapter is so short!

I just ran out of ideas.

I will update again whenever I get an idea.

So if there aren't any comments, it probably won't be anytime soon.

Sorry guys!!

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