Chyna...
This morning I woke up and took a shower. I got out the shower, washed my face and brushed my teeth. I put on my under clothes and lotioned up. I put on some ripped jeans, my explicit crop tee, and my legend blues. I wore my natural hair and put on earrings and my necklace with my name on it.
I left out the house and rode to Starbucks. When I got there, of course, Amari was there ordering her a Frappe, as usual. I ordered a Caramel Latte. We both got in our cars and headed to the school. When we arrived at school we parked our cars and went to the gym. They said the morning announcements then they released us to first period. I and Amari both had Pre- Calculus for the first period.
After what felt like a century we went to the second hour. I had Chemistry, the most exciting class ever! (a lie) Today we had a lab that dealt with alchemy. When we finished the lab we cleaned up and waited for the bell to ring. The bell rang and we went to lunch.
A few hours later...
Amari...
It was after school and I was hanging out with some of my homies. This nigga Tray came over to where we were sitting and started killing our high.
"Why are you still here? Ya best friend is gone and ya got your own car" he said pissing every inch of my soul off with his fine ass
"I'm here cause I wanna be. Now gone and move ya monkey ass on!" I said
"Damn girl I was just asking. Why you always blowing a nigga off?" He says standing over me while I sat on the bench in the courtyard.
My friends got up smirking while leaving.
"I'm not blowing you off it just... I don't know how to say it." I say
"It's what Amari?!" He questions
"If I get with you things would be different I'm used to playing niggas and making them think I love their ass. With you, it'll be different cause I'll start to fall for you and fall in love." I say
"What's wrong with that," he asked
"I don't know how to love. Everyone that puts their time and effort in trying to love me I push them away." I say getting my bag and standing up
"Let me ride witchu and I'll teach you a Lil bit." He says
"Ok only if you promise me to never tell anyone I got a little soft during our conversation." I said hitting him in the chest.
We got in my car and headed to my house. When I walked in my mom and dad had left a note on the kitchen counter.
Hey Hun,
We left and were on our way to Florida for a cruise to islands in the Caribbean. You're old enough to take care of yourself for a while. We'll be back. Be good. Have fun.
Love,
Your parents
I shake my head.
"What it say?" tray asked
"Basically it says fuck you, we went on a trip that we've been planning but we didn't want to take your ass. We miss when we didn't have you. I miss the days when we were young living the fast life without any responsibilities. We love you cause we have to. You're old enough to take care of your damn self. Love, your parents from the fiery pits of hell" I say
"They didn't say all of that," he says
"Well you're right. They sugar coated it to make it look like they ass cares about their daughter's feelings." I say
"Well let's get to this lesson," he says coming up to me gripping my waist.
Jaxon...
I was at home studying because I have these pre-collegiate courses I'm taking. I have about four months before I start college. I should've gone last year but I didn't know if I was ready for college. Being in the real world has shown me so many things, some days I miss living in Britain with my parents.
The front door opened and it was Chyna.
"Hey Babe," she said coming to me pecking me on the lips
"Hey," I say putting up my books
We went to my room and watched a movie while also studying. When the movie ended she started writing a new song. I got up and went to make me a sandwich. When I got back in the room Chyna was asleep. I put her song book up and our books and laid right beside her. I went through my timeline on twitter for a while and then finally went to sleep.
Tray...
We went upstairs and went into her room. I sat on her bed and took off my jacket. She went to her closer and pulled out basketball shorts. She took off her shirt, jeans and shoes and then looked at me.
"I see you looking," she said
"Can't help it." I said shrugging my shoulders.
She put on the shorts then sat next to me on the bed.
"So start the lesson," she said
First I described to her about what love was. I told how to know if she's in love with someone. I taught her how to not let her feelings take a toll on her love life.
"Ok well first thing first you have to realize love isn't what you say but what you do. When you're in love with someone you'll do everything in your will to make them happy" I say
She nods Her head to show me she understand what I just said.
"What makes you happy?"I ask
"What makes me happy is music. For some odd reason when everything is going wrong music calms my mood." she says
"Well there's this lil lounge that has open mic, I might be able to get you and Chyna for Friday." I say
"That's really sweet of you. I'll talk to her tomorrow about it. Are you hungry?" she ask getting up
"Nah I'm good but I'm going to get to walking home. Ya know my car has been getting fixed." I say putting on my jacket and shoes
"Aye I'll take you home," She says putting on sweats
"Aight thanks," I say
We get in her car and she drives me home. My house is just a few blocks away from hers. We arrive at my house and say our goodbyes. I go inside my house to her loud music and clouds of smoke from my step-dad and his friends smoking weed.
"I fucking hate this house," I say going upstairs to my room.
I take off my clothes and take a shower. I get out the shower and put on boxers and basketball shorts. I lotion up then laid in bed thinking about life.
Only four more months and I'll be out this hell hole. Can't wait to graduate and be free. Why did God give me this life?
These were thoughts that went through my head. I couldn't wait to leave this house and be somewhere where I'll be happy. This family is so dysfunctional but no one knows that because all they see is some wealthy black family. It's about time to get out of Atlanta.
My mom walks in my room and starts fussing. I guess I came home a little to late for her liking. She said she was worried sick, but everyone knows she could care less. We live is this big house cause she fucked her way to the top. There's one thing that everyone at my school has in common and that is our boogie ass parents. We have parents that have nice jobs so they buy nice things but don't know how to love.
It's a cold world.
