Maiden in Blue [Kuroshitsuji reader insert]

Chapter 5: Last Farewell

Its been months that you've stayed at the Phantomhive Mansion. Everybody have seemed to accepted you with open arms. Not to mention the young Earl. Even with his dull expressions, he never fails to show you concern. Everybody is being nice to you. They accepted you with no regrets, as if like you were already a part of their family.

But it only made you feel guilt. Whenever you see a smile flash for you, it made you really guilty.

You sat on the windowsill in your room, the door locked, the window wide open. The wind was soft and relaxing, but it only made you feel uneasy. You felt like you wanted to jump down, then run away never looking back.

You took a deep breath and watched as the flowers in the garden sway softly. Their petals swaying to the soft wind.

You shut your eyes thinking about your real purpose. Your mission.

'This is the worst mission ever' you thought to yourself. It was the longest you had, and you also unexpectedly became attached. You wanted to stay, but you know you can't. You looked up the stars and pointed your finger at every little one, labeling them with names that you loved dearly.

First was your parents, followed by the indian lady and the pets, then your friends back home, followed by ash and the queen. Near a very tiny star, there were three stars that were perfectly aligned with a tiny star beside one, and on the other side, was two more, then below it was another two.

You pointed at the three stars naming them. "Mei-rin, Bardroy, Finnian. And that one near Finnian is Pluto~!" you giggled pointing at the little star. Then you looked at the two on the other side. "That's Ciel, and that's Sebastian! And the two below are Lizzie and Paula!!" you said smiling at the stars.

You stared at the little star in the middle, it was small and weak. You stared at it for a little while until the clouds started moving. It slowly devoured every little star as it passes by. You watched as the clouds move realizing that you won't have all of them forever. Just like how the clouds devoured the first set of stars until the very end.

As the clouds fall set, you notice a small shine in the middle. It was the little star. It used to have everybody, but now its all alone. "Hey little star... What does it feel like being alone... [Y/N]? Would I like it?" you asked at the little star.

A tear fell from your eye wanting to end everything. And as if by planned, a strong wind ran by making the windows shut. Pushing you from your seat. That was when it all happened again.

A Cinematic Review.

You watched as the Undertaker slowly appeared smiling that weird smile of his at you. Actually, it is creeping you out. But as he arrived on and on, you got used to it.

The man walked in front of you stroking your hair. "Hmmm.... It seems that this time your death was not made purposely."

You smiled at the man and nodded. "For some reason, I like it. For once, I got what I wanted. But..... I guess Ash would arrive any moment." The last part of your sentence made you frown. You were really sick of life, you wanted to stop it. But Ash was always there to make you feel miserable. Well, actually he was saving you. But you didn't like it, you just didn't know how to say it. Undertaker understood you.

You watched as the films pass by "Undertaker..? Where are my old....... Memories?" You asked watching your now different memories. The man chuckled. "My. It seems that you've made new memories here in just a short time. You see little kitten, you forgot your past. You've moved on. That's why."

Your eyes widened at the very clip playing in front of you. It wasn't the indian lady, it wasn't your parents.

It was them. Ciel, Sebastian, Finny, Bard, Mei-rin, Tanaka, Lizzie, Paula, Pluto.

It made you cry.

The Undertaker was amazed of the scenery, you were crying. But this time, it was different. You were mad.

The man gently wrapped an arm around you stroking your hair gently. You looked at the memories one more time, which made you angry.

"Where's Ash!? He should have been here!! Where is he!? What's taking him so long!! Just... Just make him take me!! NOW!!!" You said with tears falling don your cheeks.

The man looked at you, smirking. "Kitten. Ash won't arrive today."

Your eyes grew wide. Ash wasn't going to save you. Exactly when you wanted to live, you were actually going to die.

"A-Am I... Really going to die... Now ?"

The Undertaker slowly walked to you, he smiled playfully and stroked your hair. He moved the strands covering your face and kissed your forehead gently. He smiled at you and started walking away. He was waving at you and when you were about to chase for him, he disappeared, his voice echoing all around you. "Lets find out, Kitten."