We fell in love-a linstead fanfiction

Chapter 9 - Back at it

Jays pov *6 weeks later* *9 am*

"Erin, were gonna be late on your first day back" I yelled to her.

She came running towards me from the bathroom picking up the toast and bacon I made for her in a napkin.

She looked at me in awe and said "your such a saint."

"Stop it" I said laughing at her praising me for food "you know that's not true this day is all you babe."

I'm kinda nervous that it's Erin's day back I just hope she'll take it easy I mean to me she doesn't seem all that nervous. Sure physically she was cleared two weeks ago but she was only cleared mentally two days ago. I turn and look at her sipping her coffee god she's so beautiful even just doing the simplest things I thought.

"Alright, let's go" she said quickly and a little nervously.

"You ready to go back to work?" I asked her worried.

"As ready as I have to be" she mumbled her reply so quietly I almost missed it.

*30 minutes later*

We walked into the twenty - first district but then she suddenly just stopped at the gate to the stairs without going in. "You got this" I told her taking her hand.

"You're right I just have to walk up the steps and go to my desk not go to a basement looking for a murderer" she said continuing to walk up the steps holding my hand firmly in hers.

When we got to the top of the stairs we let go of each others hands because even if Voight agreed to our relationship that doesn't mean we won't still act professional or rub it in his face.

Everyone heard our footsteps so they turned their backs from where they were standing and looked at her yelling at the same time "Welcome back Erin." While slowly approaching her for a hug. 

She started to blushing and smiling while saying "Thanks guys I really appreciate that." and she started to hug them back.

I loved the smile I seen on her face when she was greeted and hugged by everybody. Then Voight walked out his office and asked her to step into his office for a minute. As she did I couldn't help but wonder what they were talking about.

"How she's doing honestly?" Antonio asked worriedly.

"Honestly I guess she doing as good as she can be but she just isn't talking about it much but the nightmares did stop though" I told him trying to reassure him.

"That's a start at least" he said with a little optimism in his voice.

"Yea it really is nice to see her sleep peacefully for once I was starting to worry that they might not ever go away cause she wasn't talking about them but maybe being at work will help more" I said.

"Ya'll might wanna shut up, because here she comes" Ruzek said laughing knowing how much she hates when people talk about here when she's not in the room.

As she walked out of Voight's office I watched her sit down at her desk but I couldn't tell what she was thinking like I usually could. So I figured I'd ask about it later.

*3 hours later*

It's been a pretty slow day so far so I decided me and Lindsay should go get something to eat. she agreed on going to the diner down the street from here. The whole time we were in the car she had a look of scared and worry etched on her features. I parked the car and before she could open the door I locked the car doors.

She turned and looked at me a little annoyed "Why did you that?" she asked "I'm starving."

"Well I'm sorry but your not leaving this car until you tell me what's wrong" I stated.

She just sat there looking at me so annoyed. "What's wrong Erin, talk to me please, don't shut me out." I said practically begging.

She turned looking at the window with her back facing me and said "I just don't feel safe outside the district or our apartment anymore and I need to get over it so can we get out now or what."

When she said what she was really thing my heart broke on the inside knowing there isn't anything I can do. I want her to feel safe outside her apartment and the district even when she's with or without me.

"Erin" I said dragging her name out to get her attention she didn't look at me.

"Erin" I said lifting her chin so she would look at me.

When I looked in her eyes and I saw those tears falling I wanted to cry with her.

"Hey, you are safe, I'm right here, I'm not moving without you by my side do you understand. I won't let anything happen to ever for as long as I can help" I told her with such a seriousness in my voice I've never heard before.

Then we got out the car and went in the diner and we ordered our food then I asked. "So, what were you and Voight talking about in his office"

"I'll tell you later" she promised. Then we sat there and ate our food in comfortable silence with occasional small talk. Then we had to head back to the district with the doggy bag we promised Ruzek we'd bring him.