regrets | l.r.h

Chapter 5

Michael's P.O.V

I was just about to run after her when I felt someone grab my arm.

"Don't." I heard Calum said. "Just give her some time to cool off."

I sighed, shaking my head at my stupidity and went into Ashton's house and into his room.

I sat on the bean bag chair I always sit on whenever I play Fifa here and put my head in my hands.

Tears started forming in my eyes as I thought about what just happened.

I'm so stupid. I screwed up so so bad. And it's not just because of the fact that I didn't properly explained to her what happened, but also because I've been causing her to feel so sad and I didn't even realize it. I'm such a dick.

I can't lose Becky. I just can't.

I really need to talk to her, but how and when? God, my head hurts so bad right now.

I could feel the guys coming into the room and sat in front of me but I didn't bother to look up.

"Man, I'm sorry," I heard Ashton say. I just shook my head.

"I was the one who fucked up, why are you apologizing?" I said with confusion evident on my face.

Ashton just sighed and remained quiet, not knowing what to say. Everyone in this room knows I fucked up. Bad.

"I don't know what to do anymore." I whispered, looking at Ashton's Playstation remote control I threw on the floor earlier. "She fucking hates me." I said, not believing that she actually told me that.

"I'm really sure she doesn't, man. She just has so much in her mind she doesn't realise what she's saying. Just give her some time alone. Like I said, she has a lot in her mind now and you talking to her isn't going to help at all." Calum said.

"But when will I be able to talk to her?"

"You will know soon. But for now, just leave her alone and think about what you're planning to say when you're planning to talk to her again. Think thrice on what you want to say because no offence dude, but what you said to her earlier was pretty fucked up." Calum said, earning a hit on the back of his head from Ashton.

"Ow! I said no offence!" Calum exclaimed, rubbing the back of his head. Ashton just rolled his eyes and looked back at me.

"He's right." I said to Ashton quietly, looking down again. "Good thing we're all staying over here tonight. It would be awkward as hell if I bumped into her."

"Yeah true but I honestly think that someone should check up on her. Just in case she goes back to Derek. Or... does anything stupid like I don't know what but someone should just check on her." Calum said.

"He's right. You'll never know what Becky might do. She does the stupidest things sometimes." Luke finally spoke. He's always saying bad things about Becky but he's got a point, though.

"I'll go. I'll let you guys know how it turns out." Calum said, standing up. I nodded as he left the room.

Becky, I'm so so sorry.

Becky's P.O.V
(A/N: WARNING: This part of the story may be a little triggering but I'll try my best to keep it as non triggering as possible.)

I was sitting down and leaning against my door which I locked, crying my god damn eyes out.

I feel a mixture of sadness, anger and numbness and I honestly really don't know what to do.