for him. ~A Tronnor Fic~

52.

Connor.

My eyes flicker open slowly and I look around the room from my laying down stance. Sunlight pours through the window across from where I lay just barely awake. I'm in a soft hotel bed laying next to Troye. Naked.

He's still asleep soundly and he has a look of pure contentment on his face. I adjust my body and he cuddles into my side with his head resting where my heart is. Troye has a smile plastered onto his face and a look of pure contentment.

My eyes are half open still as his breathing steadies and he falls back into a light slumber. He's beautiful. The way his hair is curly and rests on his forehead. His eyes that are as blue and beautiful as the ocean. I have fallen in love with those eyes. Without even trying, he's beautiful. I'm a lucky, lucky, boy.

His grip around my body tightens. I look down at his face again and his eyes are looking up at me.
"Good morning beautiful." I say into his neck.
"Good morning my love." He presses a kiss on my forehead.
"Crazy night last night huh?" He asks me.

I smile into his neck, "You bet."
"Let's leave that part out when we go to my house today okay?" I ask him worried. I don't particularly want my family to know that that  happened again. They don't even know it happened the first time.
"Okay. This can be our little secret."

Our little secret. For the year and a half we've known each other, we have secrets to keep. From our E-Cigarette adventures, to pool hopping in Chicago, to making out in a New York skyscraper, we have our secrets. Our love isn't always expressed in words. It can be expressed in the simplest of ways.

Though our friends and family may not know the extent of our love for each other or every detail of our relationship, we do. We know every inch of each other's bodies and everything about each other. We know each other like we know ourselves.

I throw my hand out towards my nightstand and grab my phone to take a picture of Troye as he lays content. His head is buried in my chest, his arm draped over my bare chest. I snap the picture and post it to my Snap story. I don't regret kissing the stranger at the Oh Wonder concert.

I don't regret pulling myself out of bed and going to the coffee shop the next day, though I was hungover. Nor do I regret falling for the man I met or regret anything that happened or ever will happen. Connor doesn't regret it either. Our love has come too far and has become too strong for it to be forgotten or regretted.

I love him so much that it hurts. It fucking hurts. It hurts to see him in any pain at all. It hurts me if he is in a bad mood as it puts me in one as well. I'm so lucky to have him, to be loved by somebody as incredible as him. We may not always show that we love each other, but deep down we know we do. I always will love him.

He's mine and I am his. I love this boy that is tangled up with me right now. Fuck, I'm in love with this boy. Any picture I can ever take of him will never capture the true beauty he possesses. The way his curly hair falls onto his forehead is adorable. His blue eyes shine when he talks about something he loves, mainly music.

His smile can brighten up any room he's in and his melodic voice seems to sing when he speaks. He's beautiful. I've been honored to love him for as long as I have and I would be ecstatic to love him for the rest of my life. Anybody would be lucky to have him as theirs and for some reason, he chose me as that lucky person.

The love of my life is laying beside me at this moment. I'm sure of it now. If you would have told me two years ago that I would find love someday, I wouldn't have believed you. I would've thought I would never be loved by anybody because of my sexuality. Troye proved that wrong. And I proved that wrong for him too.

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