They say, love is the most powerful feeling in this world. At first, I don't believe in that, because why would be an inanimate thing be one of the most powerful thing in this world? A world that is filled with humans with capability to think more than the expected thinking capacity. Why? How? These are my questions. Questions that I need someone to answer. Until I met you, everything felt like a dream. Everything in the background fades. I'm only seeing you, and you only. It's like your every move is recorded and it slows down when I look at you. As gayish as it may seem, but I tend to feel butterflies fluttering inside my stomach whenever I see you. My heart beats irregularly fast, whenever I see you. I don't know what to think, my mind becomes blank whenever I see you smile. Just why? All these things are bothering me. All these things are foreign things. I'm not used with it. I'm bothered with everything especially for one thing, my heart. It's like feeling my heart race with an Audi-R8 because of its abnormal rhythm, I don't know why, but little by little, as I'm seeing you every day, I'm getting the hang of these foreign feelings. Everything in my mind blanks, whenever I see you smile, seeing you smile makes my whole day a lot better. For every time I hear you laugh, it's giving me contentment. I don't know why, but everything about you seem like a drug to me, to the point that I will get crazy if I won't even get a glimpse of you, for the everyday that God has created. I'm quite alarmed of how I feel. Am I crazy? Insane? What the hell are these feelings? Why am I feeling this? Just why? Months, weeks, days, hours, every minute, I can't help myself to prevent me to think of you. I don't care what they may tell me, I just want you, and you only. I want every piece of you, I want every bit of you, I want you to be happy, I don't want you to be sad, I want you to laugh, everything. I want everything about you. Maybe I really am insane, thinking about you, each and every day. As the days got longer, I'm now slowly realizing things. I'm slowly realizing my true feelings about you.
The questions I had back then, isn't there anymore. All I know is that I love everything about you. You, the totality of you. I now realized what my true feelings are, and it is because I was guided by the love that I was feeling for you. It feels like a shame to realize it just now, because it's too late. Yeah, I know you have somebody. But let me confess everything. The time that I first saw you, I already felt something different towards you. It was proven by the things I'm feeling whenever you're around, the slow motion effect whenever I look at you, the fast heart beat whenever you are near, everything made me realize one thing. That I am actually, deeply, madly in love with you. Everything I feel about you is special, especially the times when I'm looking at you and I don't want to remove my look from you anymore. I don't know why, but all of these are making me crazy. It transformed me into who am I today. It made me who I am today. And do you know what's that thing transformed me? Love. Love changed everything about me, it changed my perspective, my point of view, my everything. It made me to know you, it's the reason why I'm devastatingly in love with you. You can't blame me, because love truly is a powerful thing. Once it already has a grip on you, even if you try to break free, you can't. Love surely is powerful enough to make someone selfish, to make someone change. Love is a true feeling. Love hurts you but it will also bring you unimaginable happiness. Loving someone hurts, but if you think that everything is real, true love will prevail. A once good-for-nothing boy, changed into a hopeless romantic guy, because of love. I will wait for you, yeah, even if it takes me a long time, even if everyone hurts you, I'll be here when you need me. That's how selfless love should be.
