The Sunflower Doll

Doorface

'Doorface'

My name is Ningyou Kanako. The reason why people called me 'Dollface' or more accurately 'Doorface ' was that I showed no expressions, indications or actions or basically anything. I didn't see the need to, or maybe it was too tiring. Boys never talk to me, or rather they always talk about me, about how I was so cold I could survive the antartic. ( stupid I know, it wasn't even funny ). But I thought being honest and saying what's on your mind isn't cold. Like telling a girl that was obviously desparate for attention to ' stop acting cute ' was not that mean right ? Anyway they didn't like me, in fact nobody did. I didn't have any friends, and I was often teased by the boys because I was poor and was forced to walk a mile just to go to school. They would wait at the gate entrance and say things like, 'tired ?' and stuff like that. There was one time where they drenched a bucketful of ice cold water because it seems that I look like I needed it since I was ' sweating '. It was fine. I was used to that.

I felt that if the world wanted to put me in this position so be it. I couldn't do anything anyway.

But then high school came and by that time my mother had died and my father was running a successful company. Making more money everyday, I couldn't care less, about whether I was poor or rich. My mother had left me, she was my only guide to helping me survive this world. It was like everything had gone black. Pitch black.

On the entrance ceremony, I didn't care other people's news, issues or anything. It went on like that until the middle of the year. The last year of high school that is.

I was already used to how dark the world had become. I still had no friends. Eventhough I was always at the top of the class, they still didn't want to talk to me.

That time as I was opening my locker to get my umbrella ( it was raining ) a note fell out. It went something kinda like this:

OI , DOORFACE WE TOOK YOUR UMBRELLA BECAUSE YOU MIGHT GET SICK TOMORROW IF YOU WENT OUT IN THE RAIN. NOBODY WANTS YOU IN SCHOOL DOORFACE ! NOT THAT WE WOULD NOTICE IF YOU WERE HERE OR NOT SINCE EVERYBODY IGNORES YOU!

I couldn't say I wasn't hurt. I've been thinking whether I should continue to come to school. And I thought ........... I thought SOMEBODY would notice I was gone if I didn't come to school.

It looks like nobody would even care. ( but seriously, taking my umbrella? Is that the best they can do ? )

Haaaa~~~It looks like I have to run a mile to go back home, out in the rain that is.

I was just about to run out when suddenly, somebody grabbed my hand.

'Are you sure about that ?' I heard a deep voice murmur.

I could tell it was a guy (deep voice ), but I didn't know it was THAT guy. It was Kurosaki Sasori. Said to be the most popular guy in school. Everybody likes him. Everybody wants to be his girlfriend.

So why is he grabbing my arm ?

'Hah ! They were right ! Your face IS expressionless !'

'Do you want something ?'

'I have an umbrella.'

'So?'

'So we can share it !'

'Why?'

'Cuz I want to .'

' That's not a reason.'

Suddenly, he pulled me closer until we were practically nose to nose . Then he whispered,

' Then how about this , I think your smart and bueatiful and I love you .'

I could feel his hot breath on my cheeks.

If I was a computer I would of shut down right then and there. I didn't know what was happening.

Did a guy actually confessed to me ? Me doorface ? Me who everybody ignores ?

' I-I w-what ?' I stuttered.

'Hahahaha! Even when your stuttering your face is still expressionless !' he laughed.

I didn't get to see his face clearly early on ( cuz he pulled me so fast ) but now I can tell why people like him.

With his spiky matt black hair, sharp nose and handsome features, how can they not ? But I didn't care about that, what I'm wondering is what the hell is he doing confessing to me ?

' I'm sor-' I started to say but suddenly he put his forefinger on my lips.

He smiled and said

' It's okay , I can wait .'

We walked home together that day. I know this guy would only bring me trouble. But deep in my heart I know I would one day eventually fall for him.

But that day, it was as if a bright light had suddenly appeared in my once dark world.

But.......but I never knew that that light would also kill me in the end.

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