The Sunflower Doll

Mistake - Part 4

KANAKO

A deathly silence enveloped us. I couldnt think of anything. My mind was blank. It was as if time just stopped.

A hollow chuckle rose up my throat,

'HOW IRONIC'

the chuckle slowly turned into laughter,

'HOW CLICHE'

I threw my head high, couldn't contain the hysterical laughter that bounced off the walls of the posh little cafe. It was just too ridiculous.

'DOESN'T IT ALWAYS END LIKE THIS ?'

" So that's how it was, huh ? " I whispered.

All the people in the cafe had their eyes on me. I even saw an old lady halfway through her tea staring at me as if I should go to the nut house. Haha maybe I should.

I looked at Sasori. He looked at me like he was waiting for me to do something else crazy. What did he want me to do? Shout ? Scream? I would of done that, but I wasn't that kind of person.

Now that I know what kind of people I had befriended for the past two years, I would not let them see me suffer.

I just had to know one thing. Facing Sasori's dark amber eyes, I looked hard at him and said,

"Have you, for even one second, loved me ?"

I hope I didn't sound too desperate.

Sasori, amber eyes clashing with my black ones, leaned closer and with a lopsided smile,whispered,

" What do you think ?"

There! Right then was when I felt something inside of me just snapped!

All the anger, frustration, disappointment, sadness, all of them just poured out.

In one swift movement, I raised my hand and wanted to slap him so hard his cheeks would explode.

But I stopped, my hand centimeters from slapping the man to oblivion. I didn't know why.

I saw Sasori flinch when he saw my hand swerving his way, but when I stopped he smirked,

"Huh? whats wrong ? losing the fight already ? scared ?".

He laughed.

" Guess you just don't have the guts to do it. "

No. No that wasn't it. It wasn't that I didn't have the guts to do it. It was just that I wanted him to have more than a mere slap in the face from the girl he just dumped.

So I punched him.

CRASH!

Glasses shattered, and food was strewn everywhere. I punched him so hard that he landed over a table behind him bringing the whole contents to the floor. Gasp could be heard all around the room as they witness what I had done. Man, its not like I killed him, I could if I wanted to though.

The hand that just punched that jerk, tight in a fist, was bruised and bleeding. Good. That meant I managed to break some of his teeth out. Everybody was staring at us now, I could feel their eyes at my back and all around me.

I looked at Akiko whose face was white as a sheet. When she saw me staring at her she slowly backed away in fear.

" Aaaaaarrgghh....." Sasori suddenly moaned.

Oh, is he still concious?

I stepped over the shattered glass,fallen napkins, and rose petals that was scattered around after the crash. Grabbing Sasori's shirt collar and pulling him so he could face me, my face still a mask of hidden feelings faced his swollen and pathetic face ( which might have a few missing tooth somewhere ).

" You know I made a mistake,"

I pulled him closer until our foreheads was touching and I could feel his hot breath against my cheeks.

"I should never have fallen in love."

I looked at him straight in the eye.

" Especially not with YOU." I hissed.

I abruptly pushed him off and heard his head banged the table as I released him from my grasp.

That was about the time Akiko suddenly went berserk. I didn't notice she was still standing behind me, I figured after what happen she would just run away.

As I glanced at her, her face which was pale from shock just moments ago, contorted and turned to a face which was filled with fury.

" WHAT DID YOU DO TO SASORI YOU B****!!!!!!" She screeched.

She raised her arms with utter anger, arms that suprisingly was holding a glass vase. When did she got a hold of that ? I should've known what would happen next.

She screamed and lashed out ..........throwing the dangerously heavy glass vase in my direction.

Everything went slow as I saw the vase flying right at my face. I couldn't move fast enough to dodge it, but managed to hold out my right arm to protect myself.

As it crashed to me, I could feel pain already all over my right arm, it was like a hundred knives just up and stabbed my arm everywhere. The impact was so hard that I suddenly found myself lying on the floor. A pool of blood already forming from where my right arm laid. I giggled deliriously, at least it didn't hit my face.

Suddenly I begin to feel sharp pains all over my body. Ah, looks like the glass shard had pierced through other parts of my body too........

I tried to get up but my strength has left me. My head feels wet. Oh, then it must be bleeding too....damn it.

I could feel a smile creep to my lips, it was amazing how fast my world could change.

Dark blotches of darkness was already creeping at the edge of my vision. I was losing focus.

" Call the ambulance!!" I heard somebody shout.

Mou~~ I didn't think it mattered now anymore. It was already too late. Am I going to die ? Well, at least i'll meet mom up there.....

Her warm loving smile suddenly flashed through my mind, hair like golden waterfall cascading over her shoulders.

'Kanako,don't give up okay ?'

"Oka-san...." I whispered feebly.

I'm sorry mom, I think its too late for that too.

Darkness covered my eyes.

My world had turned dark.