I Hate You

3.

Jaquees

I woke up next to some random girl. I went to sit up and see who it was but soon it felt like a ton of bricks crashed onto my head.

"Ah shit!". I mumbled. Laying my ass right back down. I looked to my side to see a note.

"Just in case I'm not up to give this to you. Here is asprin and water. Also I had fun last night"
-Ronica

My eyes widened as I read the name over again.

"Fuck my life man". I whisper yelled. I slowly got up and took the asprin and water. I put back on my clothes which reaked of weed.

I put my dreads in a messy bun then I grabbed my keys and I headed out.

I looked around the rooms to see if Malaysia was still Herr but she was no where to be found.

As I got in the car, memories of last night flooded quickly into my mind and I froze.

I fucked up.

I turned on my car and rushed over to Malaysia. Despite the fact I had a huge headache. I still went.

I pulled up in her drive way and knocked on the door.

"Malayasia, please answer the door!" I yelled banging on the door.

The door swung open revaling her in a black lace pantie and bra with a silk robe barley covering over her and her natural curly hair all over the place with red puffy eyes.

"I got a headache and your bitch ass come knocking on the door. What the FUCK do you want". She asked with hate dripping from her tone.

I sighed.

"I just wanna apologize for what I said last night I didn't mean it. I'm sorry, please forgive me". She starred me down for a while.

My headache only began to get worse as I felt like I was finna pass out.

"Come in here and lay on the couch". I followed her in and did as told.

She fixed me a glass of water and put a cold rag on my forehead. Then wrapped a blanket over me.

"Take a nap. You'll be better when you wake up". With that she walked off leaving me downstairs by myself.

The whole time I thought about her and who I wished for her to be down here but I ended up falling asleep.

Malaysia

What he said honestly did hurt me, but people come and go. I mean its happens all my life so I'm not even gonna stress it.

I put on some music as I layed down. Writing my feelings in my diary.

I tend to write in this a lot since my grandmother died.

She told me to write in it everyday when I have nobody to vent to and since I don't. I do it everyday.

Soon there was a soft knock on the door. Annoyed by knowing who it was. I mumbled for him to come in.

"My headache is gone". I nodded.

"Congratulations". I stated simply.

"Look I know your mad but hear me out I-". I cut him off.

"Shut the fuck up, I been through to much shit throughout my life and here you go fucking my shit up. I felt like you were an actual good person and I trusted you. Do you know that you were my first real friend?! I trusted you quees! I hardly trust anyone. My heart has been damaged enough and you just made it worse. So thank you!". I yelled in his face with tears streaming down my face.

He tried to hold me put I pushed him away but he grabbed me and pushed me on the wall.

"I like you Laysia! Your all I think about everyday and you can't even see it. I don't know who damaged you to the point where you can't trust again. But I will never do that to you. I know what I did last night was uncalled for but that was the liquor talking. I would hate to loose you out my life over something stupid I did. I'm sorry".

I starred at him trying to see if he meant it and he did. I broke down even more as my wall was slowly beginning to crumble to the ground.

"I-im sorry". I mumbled through my tears.

"Don't be" he held me as I cried my heart out and all the pain flowed freely from me.

I felt him kiss my forehead. "Its okay" he whispered in my ear. "Its okay".