I Hate You

5.

Jaquees

She hasn't came out her room all day and honestly it scared me.

It wasn't long until the house reaked of weed, but I didn't mind. I know she needed this so I decided to leave her be.

Me and her brother just been talking and discussing random shit. He just like a boy version of Laysia and I thought he was cool.

"Should we check on Laysia?" I asked him. He shook his head.

"Imma go" he replied then got up leaving me by myself. After a few seconds I heard a soft knock and his voice asking if he could come in.

I so badly wanted to go up there and see Wassup but I don't think she wanted to see me.

Anthony (in mm)

When I walked in she was sitting in the corner with her curly hair all over the place, and puffing out smoke from her mouth and nose.

"Sis, you okay?" I asked as I sat next to her. She chuckled to herself.

"I look like shit and you gone ask me if I'm okay?" I shook my head at her.

"Excuse me for trying to help you". I was about to get up when she called me back.

"I'm sorry, a lot of things are just on my mind and I don't know what to do honestly" she took another puff as I took my seat back. "Feels like...I'm by myself in this big world and no one is here to save me from all the evil and negativity. I just wish I could...vanish. Just disappear from all of it."

I kissed her forehead as she cried into my chest.

"Your not alone sis. We been through so much shit together and when I told you I would ride for you. I meant it, don't ever forget that." She nodded her head slowly.

We sat there for a while just letting this moment sink in. This was my first time ever seeing her this vulnerable. She always had to be tuff when I was younger because honestly me and her were surviving off of nothing but whatever the streets brought to us. We struggled hard but yet, somehow my sister managed to keep me in school, put food in my stomach, and clothes on my back.

Something my real mom hasn't done for me. All she worried about was when she was gonna get her next fix, which angered me but I couldn't do nothing but let the past be the past.

"You can bring Quees in here?" She asked softly. I nodded and pulled away from her carefully.

I jogged down the stairs and nodded him for him to go in there.

I didn't have to tell him twice. He jumped up to go see her with no time wasted.

I laughed. "Ahaa he sprung". I mumbled to myself, laughing.

Jaquees

I basically ran up to her room. When I got to the top step, I composed myself then went in the room.

"Quees?" She asked softly. The room was dark with smoke still clouding around the room.

"Yeah?". I found her sitting in the corner trying to get herself together.

"I'm sorry for going off on you. I didn't mean for it to come out so hateful but I was just really angry. I've waited years for her to clean up but it never happened and I guess all my anger built up just finally released". I held her as tears slipped down her face.

"Its okay" I reassured her.